My name is Avi. I’m a 21 year old faggot. I wanted to write about my experience being cunted. I was cunted twice. Once by myself using a dildo. I’d been pounding my pussy with it, which by the way for some reason is starting to look like an actual pussy? When I started trembling and the dildo hit something inside me and I trembling even worse and began to cry as I came, cum dribbling out of my cage, as my entire body shook from an anal orgasm. And when I pulled out the dildo I felt so empty it hurt. I craved something in me, and it took me a month to realize I craved alpha cock. Which led to me getting cunted by what was once one of my friends. I trembled, I cried, I came over and over, and I was changed by it all. Now I still have this weird emptiness in me that only cock can sate, and my asshole looks like a pussy for some reason. Any ideas as to why?
My brother, thank you for the awesome question!
First of all, congratulations on managing to cunt yourself with a dildo! It’s not easy to do. You must’ve been in deep subspace while fucking yourself with it! I think it’s great that your first cunting experience happened that way, because in that case you were able to pay attention to all of the sensations you were giving yourself.
The thing you hit inside you that triggered the cunting cascade of orgasms, trembling, and tears was very likely your prostate.
It’s very interesting that you felt that void after cunting yourself with a dildo. You asked me about that empty, yearning feeling – I call it “The Void”. And guess what? I wrote about it specifically in the article “Cunting And The Void“! You can follow that link to read the article! I think you will recognize some of what you’re experiencing in it!
As for your hole resembling a pussy now that you’ve been cunted and bred a couple of times, don’t worry too much about it. This is perfectly normal for fucked, cunted faggots. It’s where the term “boy pussy” comes from. And guess what?? I’ve written about that as well, in this article titled “Boy Pussy“!! Once again, I’ve linked to that article so you can read it!
I’m really happy for you, my brother! You not only experienced cunting, but The Void it created caused you to seek out Alpha dick and get cunted “properly”!
But I’m also proud of you for being aware and curious enough to seek out answers to these transformations in both your body and mind as you more fully fulfill your purpose! So many faggots miss these things, which is a shame. Your awareness will help you progress faster and with more success!
Hopefully you’ll want to share your experiences with this former friend/Alpha who cunted you! Thank you again for writing!
This post is part of a thread following a faggot named Giovanni who is owned by Master Lorenzo. CLICK HERE to read all of these posts in chronological order!
This site has always been blessed with some truly astonishing faggots. I have had influence with some of them, but I do not take credit for the terrific faggots they’ve become … NATURE deserves that credit. These are not “good boys” … they’re GREAT boys. They were born with a natural desire and the programming to serve Alphas properly.
Even among the legendary faggots in the Hall of Fame around here, little Giovanni shines among the brightest. He’s as natural of a faggot as you’ll ever know … sexy, slutty, and playful, but obedient and worshipful and deeply considerate of the needs of superior Men. To top it off, Giovanni is a mentor faggot (the highest rank in my faggot hierarchy), a slave devoted to helping other fags sharpen their skills and mental outlook.
He’s rightly owned by one of the greatest God Alphas I’ve ever known in Master Lorenzo. That means Giovanni is not only used properly, but he’s also cared for in the most exquisitely loving ways. Master Lorenzo knows he owns a Rolls Royce faggot in Gio (honestly two along with Rafael), so he takes perfect care of his fags so they are always ready to serve.
Some faggots complain to me about being restricted (like when they’re locked in cages) or some other aspect of service, but Giovanni relishes everything about his Master and his service to him without any complaints at all. It’s marvelous!
Giovanni likes to surprise Master Lorenzo every so often, if for no other reason except to keep his Master happy. The other day Giovanni came up with a cute surprise, but notice how it ended up being a learning opportunity:
Hello brother Sam!!! This is Giovanni
Omg brother, you won’t believe what happened last night!
It was Master Lorenzo’s birthday and I cooked a nice meal for him and talked to Rafael that we could bring a third faggot as a surprise for our King. So I found a sexy fag on Grindr, explained the situation and we were all set. Our Master arrived home, ate his food, and then the fag arrived.
He was soooo happy, the fag was really sweet and sexy. He put the three of us in his bed, all with our ass up, he lubed our holes and fucked a little of each, alternating from one pussy to the other. Everything was going super well.
Then I rode him, Rafael sucked him again, and he fucked the new fag in missionary and doggy. He wanted to give his load to his new fag, so after banging him hard he told the boy to open his mouth. He shot a very delicious load in the fag’s mouth, and you know, I thought that my mission was complete to my Master. We were all sweaty in bed.
But the boy out of a sudden turned his head to the floor and spit all the cum on the floor!!!!! Omg Sam, I was so embarrassed and he spit a thick load with all his saliva on master’s rug, it was horrible. I could see the shock and the disappointment in Master’s eyes, but I know he’s a really good man, so he would not beat him, but he was clearly offended.
Master just said “Gio, go wash the rug. Rafael, go take our new friend to take a shower” I knew something was wrong because Master always bathe us with his hands after he fucks us but with the new guy he just told him to go take a shower with Rafael.
Anyway, the fag took a shower, dressed up again, and left the house. I knelt on the floor kissing Master’s feet and apologizing for the fag’s behaviour. But Master Lorenzo just said “not everyone is perfect like you, baby”
Then he took Rafa and I and bathed us as always, kissing us, telling us how beautiful we are, and washing our whole body, including our holes, of course. We went back to his room and before sleeping he demanded a double blowjob and shot another load for Rafa and I. We of course swallowed every single drop.
Brother Sam, I told the fag ONE MILLION times that Lorenzo is healthy and always does all his tests, so that he could take his load with no risks, but still he spit all my King’s precious seed. That happened yesterday, today in the morning he texted me again on grindr asking when “he would be able to ride my boyfriend again”
I asked Lorenzo what to do, and he said that the fag deserves a second chance, but he wanted to know why he didn’t swallow. BELIEVE IT OR NOT brother, the fag said “oh I really like dick but I don’t like cum, it’s disgusting” and guess what, my perfect master just said “be polite with him baby, but tell him that we won’t see each other again” And then I told the fag that Master didn’t want to do it again, but I added a personal advise and told him that, if the Alpha is healthy and have no risks, he should respect more the precious seed of Men. He called me a misogynistic and blocked me.
I felt bad at first because I thought I had ruined Master’s birthday. But tonight he arrived home with a very sexy lingerie, a new cage, and a new anal plug for me. Rafael usually stays with us just on the weekends, so I was by myself. Oh brother Sam, it was so magical!! Master likes to fuck rough but sometimes he’s really romantic and I love it!!
Look how perfect he is: he told me that he noticed during the day in my text messages that I was feeling guilty so he wanted to remind me that I am “the world’s most precious faggot” so he brought a really tiny sexy lingerie, put the new cage on me, and told me to wait for me with the plug inside me while he took a shower.
When he came back from his shower, I was ready and my hole was all nice and lubed for him. We made love for hours and hours, he came inside of me first and then in my mouth. I have his cum now in my face, tongue, stomach, and ass.
Now he’s asleep and I am really tired as well but I wanted to tell you this story before I go to bed!
Brother Sam, why is it so important for Men that we accept their cum inside of us? And why so many people find it disgusting? Last question: do you think I did the right thing telling the fag to respect the seed of superior Men?
I think Master Lorenzo was very reasonable telling the fag not to come back anymore if he doesn’t like cum. But I wanted to know your opinion.
I have soooo many female friends who refuse to swallow their boyfriends cum. Omg, it’s crazy for me! I would swallow gallons of Lorenzo’s cum if he wanted me to do it!! I love you so much brother Sam!!
My goodness, what an experience!
First of all, I’m proud of Giovanni (also Rafael) for maintaining their perfect standards (and submissive attitudes) despite the fairly atrocious and undisciplined behavior of this outside fag. The situation could’ve gotten out of hand (who knows what I would’ve done in the same situation! Probably would’ve been pretty mad!). Giovanni’s shock, though, is appropriate. Giovanni has been bred and fed Master Lorenzo’s cum too many times to count, and Giovanni considers every drop of it to be exactly what it is: the most precious substance on earth.
To see a random faggot spitting his Master’s cum on the carpet was just too much for Giovanni to bear! I’m so glad Giovanni discreetly corrected this wayward faggot!
This incident really underscores how badly all faggots need Owners to train them properly. Not all faggots emerge from the womb ready to serve like Giovanni did. It makes me sad and frustrated that there are so many unschooled feral faggots out there insulting Alphas with their pathetic, half-hearted service!
Incidentally, I’m also proud of Master Lorenzo for refusing to give the faggot another chance. Alphas should maintain respect for themselves and their Alphahood. The feral faggot was attractive, but for a God Alpha obedience is worth more than a hot ass.
Here are my responses to Giovanni’s questions:
It’s important for Men to put their cum inside us for a couple of reasons. First of all, Men are natural breeders, and the process of shooting their cum into someone is deeply satisfying on a primal level. Secondly, shooting their cum into people is a way of claiming them as conquered territory. Thirdly, a Man’s cum carries his specific genes and hormones. It’s HIM, essentially. So that cumshot is as personal of a gift as a Man can give, so it should be respected.
I guess people find it disgusting because it shoots from the same hole the Man pisses from, so they equate cumshots with waste. Of course, this is incredibly disrespectful and just plain WRONG, but people get stupid ideas in their heads. Also, I wouldn’t say that cum always tastes DELICIOUS, so for some people the taste is awful enough to make them sick.
Not only did you do the right thing, but you also did it in the most perfect way possible. You did everything you could as a good boy and great mentor to try and teach this dumb faggot the truth. Yu never know … maybe it’ll be out there thinking about what you said and change!
I’m so proud to call Giovanni my friend and little brother. We both serve Master Lorenzo, so I’m always kneeling right next to Gio in spirit, both of us safe in the enormous shadow of our God Alpha, Lorenzo.
The following post is part of a thread chronicling the development of a 57-year-old married gay Alpha who is recovering his Alphahood after many years of latency. CLICK HERE for all posts in this thread in chronological order!
This site has been a labor of love for me for ten years. It’s not just a porn site (although it has a lot of the best porn!), and it’s not just a site that deals with fetishes (it’s covered them all!). It’s my attempt to create a deep, meaningful, and honest exploration of something that affects every male (and consequently every human) on the planet: HIERARCHY.
It hasn’t been easy. The site itself has come under attack multiple times by both hackers and by people falsely accusing me of lying. I’ve been cancelled more times than I can even attempt to count. But the site remains thriving to this day because I’m a stubborn and resilient faggot, and also because the site has achieved some remarkable, difference-making discoveries.
One of the most vital discoveries – one I’m most proud of – is something I called “Alpha latency”. It’s a (now proven) explanation for what happens to some Alphas (typically from childhood trauma) who fail to embrace their natural Alpha gifts and instead take a more submissive position in life. When I first encountered it in a straight Alpha, I was baffled. But my subsequent cure of his latency and the complete turnaround he immediately experienced set me on a course to document many cases of this most frustrating phenomena. Since then, I’ve helped a lot of Alphas understand, face, and overcome this barrier to great power and glory.
The hardest cases of Alpha latency involve gay Alphas. I have theories on this, but mostly I do think that gay Alphas have extra layers of pressure (beyond possible child abuse) to conform to society expectations of Men, as well as the gay agenda of equality. All of these elements confuse young, developing Alphas and misdirect them into a life inferior to what they were born into.
The latest case of Alpha latency is a 57-year-old married gay Alpha named Nick. I’m going to present his case here as it was presented to me, then I’ll discuss further after.
I’ve been reading your stuff on Alpha Latency and Alpha Ascension. I didn’t change teams until 25 so I’m a late bloomer. For 30 years I considered myself Beta Dom per your chart. But I now think I’m ascending to bottom rung of alpha hood as a latent alpha.
But I am really conflicted because if you read Fagmaster’s Ultra Faggot he lists categories for: The Cocksucker, Cumjunkie, and Glory Hole Whore. I call myself a Top who loves to suck dick and swallow cum. Don’t like anal, just oral. But otherwise I would call myself Alpha.
So I’m conflicted because those 3 behaviors around sucking dick are squarely in the faggot zone.
I am 6-4, 205 lbs, 57, good looking silver Daddy, but just normal body, not muscle builder. I was fat most of my life so never had positive body image. Recently lost a lot of weight on Wegovy so I now have normal BMI and hot silver Daddy looks. I never learned what it felt like to be hot and have guys hit on you, because it never happened. I think these insecurities held me down my whole life
I have success is my own business and friends joke that I always seen to fail “Up” which are Alpha traits. I am very smart. I recently started having faggots over to my house and use them, fucking both holes viciously, with the rut, and cunting. And frequent the bathhouse to fuck random holes. All alpha traits. I have ED at my age so I have to use Trimix but it gives me a rock hard dick for 4 hours which is perfect for the bathhouse. I’m about 6.75 inches. My husband says I have a nice dick and he married that dick (an owned faggot trait btw see below). I am confident now walking around with the towel around my waist with not a fat belly anymore and boner tent in the towel asticking out. (I used to be shy & introvert). The bottoms grab my cock tent when I walk by and beg to be fucked. This is alpha trait.
When I was a teen I had dorks from the neighborhood try to befriend me out of the blue which I didn’t understand at the time. Another alpha trait. I would call myself a protector alpha.
I was never athletic; sucked at soccer in 3rd grade and never tried any other sports. This lack of athletic soccer skill instilled a profound lack of physical confidence in me and insecurity my whole life, plus I was fat. Never wanted to compete with other Men. No sports. No gym or muscle building.
Only recently do I think I’m seeing Alpha latency in myself after reading your material, Sam. (Ty!)
I bottom for my beta husband once per quarter as a marital courtesy. And I’ve been practicing many of the Alpha ownership techniques that Fagmaster talks about in Alpha-Beta to help my beta husband self actualize as a total slut. E.g. He’s taken 1100+ dicks and 325+ loads YTD. A true cock slut that Fagmaster talks about. He’s a Flight attendant who gets dick and loads on every layover. Bathhouse 2-3x per week. Cruising park. Apps. I love to suck the cum out of his cummy hole, and the fuck it and churn the other guys’ cum. My husband will go out and bring me back a cummy hole since he knows I love it so much (and of course he gets fucked and used in the process: win-win)
My husband is under me on the hierarchy but I wouldn’t call him faggot. He’s Beta-Dom. Since starting T replacement therapy 3 years ago, I’ve seen his behavior change where he now tops 50% of the time, but he is still a total bottom sling slut taking all cocks and all loads. I’m about to setup his first motel cumdump event. He’s ready for it and wants to do it.
Have you met any people like me that exhibit attributes of both Alpha and fag? I supposed humans are complicated creatures and don’t fit nearly in a rigid box. I took your test “Am I a Faggot” and the score said “No”. But my intellectual brain has dissonance on how can I be alpha when I love sucking cock and swallowing cum (and felching cum out of my husband’s hole) in which are squarely faggot traits?
Or my husband has all the faggot characteristics that Fagmaster describes in Ultra Faggot, yet he tops about 50% of the time and deposits his load into the bottom. Which is another contradiction.
Sam you really provide a great public service and I’m happy to see you’re back and monetizing your passion. I would really welcome your thoughts on classifying me and my husband.
Here was my response to Alpha Nick’s myriad questions:
Sir,
Thank you very much for writing to me in great detail about your situation! I love learning about these sometimes complex hierarchical situations, especially ones like yours that are complicated by years of gay counter-programming, frequent role changing, and suppressive forces that confuse so many.
I’m going to try and hit what I feel are the main points of your letter. Please forgive me if I miss something you feel is important. I really want to cover it thoroughly.
First of all, my current chart does not have “objects” listed separately. That was an old and discarded diagram. I only ever had “object” separated that way because I kept getting push-back from faggots who want to be known as “objects”, I thought (and still think) that such a thing is merely a fetish, and unrealistic for long-term functioning. So I finally discarded it and went with my gut. A faggot is generally equal to other faggots, regardless of function. However, I did publish my faggot hierarchy (HERE) in which I gave a rough outline of how I think faggot hierarchy works, but I don’t apply it stringently.
I certainly don’t (nor ever did) fully agree with FagMaster on a variety of issues related to Hierarchy. He was more concerned with the fetish aspects of it, treating hierarchy as a kink rather than a unifying theory of Male behavior as I do. In my conversations with him, I could never get a satisfactory answer about whether or not he actually ever owned or used faggots. His writings on the subject were impressive, though, especially if he made it all up in his imagination. But we will never know, because as you said FagMaster has disappeared.
As you mention, one huge difference between FagMaster and myself is hierarchical classification. I felt FagMaster’s take was lazy and unfair to the many betas out there who would never submit to a male, and his view never properly addressed the actual mechanisms always happening between Men. Mine, on the other hand, has been sharpened like a surgical instrument at this point, so much so that I regularly use it to predict outcomes of ongoing situations.
My hierarchy pyramid has received multiple revisions since I started in 2015. My proudest moment was the revelation that came to me while in prison, when insights I gathered inside helped me see the true nature of Alpha hierarchy. I was close to correct before prison, but one newly-added element – the “God Alpha” – connected the dots.
Given the examples even in your distant past, it’s very clear you were always Alpha, Sir. The deference you received from inferiors, the natural submission offered to you from both the general population and lovers clearly indicate that other people always saw what you are. It’s a shame you didn’t recognize this earlier, because you might’ve been inspired to shape your body into a reflection of the natural alphahood you possessed since birth.
Therein lies the issue. I think gay Alphas have many more problems with Alpha latency than straight Alphas do (although I’ve helped many straight Alphas as well). Unlike straight Alphas, gay Alphas have the typical issues that sometimes cause latency (including childhood abuse), but they also have the suffocating stigma of being a GAY MALE. Society views gay males as “lesser Men” regardless of their masculinity or perceived Alphahood, and this can serve to push gay Alphas into latency because internally they feel inferior to straight Men or “disappointing” to others in general.
Just hearing your story gives me confidence to say that your latency springs from at least some of that stigma, which led to body issues and a lifetime of suppressed Alphahood.
I have a few suggestions, Sir. I’m curious about your thoughts on them.
First of all, I think you should entirely stop being topped by your husband as a “courtesy” fuck. Your husband needs to more fully embrace his place your faggot (or something closer to that). It’s time for you to understand that Alphas generally don’t get fucked by other Men, but especially by someone who is absolutely lower hierarchically. It may sound silly, but I promise you that imbalances grow and cause issues if not cut off and corrected.
As for your apparent desire to suck dick, it might be a residual effect of being a gay Man who spent most of an entire life trying to be an average gay Man. However, as is becoming more and more evident, you are NOT an average gay Man. You are a gay Alpha. I do think the more you are served and worshiped (and as you lean more into that truth), sucking dick and licking strange male cum from your bottom husband’s ass will become much less appealing. It might be a hard habit to break, but I think it will just drop off like a gangrenous body part. Just embrace your Alphahood and leave behind the vestiges of latent behavior that have held you back for far too long!
I will say that I’ve never dealt with Alphas who exhibit the traits of both Alpha and fag for very long. Once latent Alphas truly embrace the truth of their situation, they usually let go of those fag characteristics, primarily because those fag acts remind them of a time when they were confused about their purpose. The joy of finally understanding their latency and becoming free to use their great power proves to be much more intoxicating than submitting to another Man.
You have a journey ahead of you, Sir. Given your circumstances, it might be a harder road than other latent Alphas I’ve encountered. But if you embrace your truth and start making more decisions to benefit yourself, I have no doubt you’ll get to be exactly where you’re meant to be, Sir!
I hope to hear back about your progress!
You can kind of see how so many years of experimentation and role swapping – things quite common and encouraged among ordinary gay couples – have warped both Alpha Nick and his husband away from their innate purposes. There’s nothing wrong with that as long as they’re happy, of course, but that’s the point: Alpha Nick isn’t happy. He senses the power just beyond the wall. He needs to learn to dismiss the old tropes of his once-ordinary life and embrace the magnificent glory he was born to have!
I hope he can do it. Fifty-seven years is a long time to be buried, and it’s easy to get comfortable in a life that is generally working well.
But what could that life become? Only Alpha Nick can find that out!
The above Alpha is one of the more jaw-dropping cashmasters in findom, a college bro named Master @colecolossus.
He’s corn-fed hunkiness defined, an unapologetic throwback to stinky, red-blooded Masculine ideals. He’s the kind of Man who loves car grease on his shirts, battered old boots, and comfortable jeans that show off his package. He’s that dreamy Alpha we fantasized about in shop class, the boisterous life of the party we admired from afar.
He’s the King of Tony Scott sunsets, tossing a tennis ball to his trusty dog as crickets praise his glory, his girlfriend watching lustily while sitting on the tailgate of his beat-up Chevy.
And now findom has come into this sexy redneck’s life and taught him a new aspect to nature he never learned on the farm. It’s called HIERARCHY, and to him it’s now second nature. He’s learned that being a Man’s Man and embracing his natural state makes even other inferior males submit to him.
Every fart, every belch, every flash of an armpit makes him money from the countless faggots who drink his essence in like it’s holy.
That’s because it IS holy!
God made Man and everything a Man is. That’s Master Cole.
So faggots everywhere, get on your knees and drink him in!
Ask any Alpha who has taken a fggot’s virginity, and they’ll tell you this is the hottest sound. The high-pitched screaming. The struggle. They’ll also say that they never stop fucking it, because this must happen. This is why it was born. To be taken by a Man. Its PURPOSE.
An Alpha MUST pump his seed into his owned property. Women or faggots, it makes no difference. They can scream and cry all they want, but this is nature’s way. A Man takes what he wants this way and makes it HIS by marking it forever with his seed!
The following post is part of a thread following the submission of a faggot named Ethan to an experienced black Master known as King Karter. CLICK HERE to read all of these posts in chronological order!
I’ve always been open about my love of black Alphas. In my fag career, I’ve probably served/serviced more straight black Alphas than any other race. But here’s the curious part of that: I’ve never been OWNED by a black Alpha.
For whatever reason, my experience with black Alphas has taught me that they generally don’t own faggots. They definitely use them – and use them well – but it seems like ownership is a step too close to intimacy, familiarity, or responsibility. That’s a shame, because I believe black Alphas would benefit mightily from owning in-house faggots.
That’s why it was so thrilling to learn of the existence of a black God Alpha named King Karter who owns multiple in-house faggots. The faggot who breathlessly contacted me about his new Master, a relatively new faggot named Ethan, fell under King Karter’s control and his world was turned upside-down.
The previous updates from Ethan were wild, but after several months Ethan returns with something bordering on insane. I’m tempted to chop it into installment posts, but I think I’ll present the entire thing, with breaks for commentary.
Here’s what my brother wrote:
Hi Sam,
I apologize for not emailing you in a while. I have been meaning to email you this October because a lot has happened since I got back to Texas. I will try to keep this Email as short as possible, (It turns out it was a long one, after the fact) as I should have sent two or three emails for all of it. But King Karter told me he had been looking for my updates, and I told him I hadn’t emailed you in a while because I hadn’t had the time, and he instructed me to email you this weekend or I’d get a whopping. I also know I had been neglecting emailing you, because I had been so busy.
First, I want to say, A HUGE, Huge Thank you to you and Master Francesco.
To Master Fancesco, I want to say Thank You for helping me with his meal plan. I have been on it for the most part (I did tweak a few things) since I read the post back at the beginning of August. I did change it a bit. I drink protein shakes, so I added that because of my workouts. I also don’t like fish all the time, but I do eat it more often now because of the meal plan, but I add shrimp for a few dinners and chicken, and I did add Beef to the diet, only twice a week though, and I don’t do it any day before I know I’m going ot see King Karter. (I added Beef because, well, I am American and I live in Texas now sooo haha) But for the most part, I have kept it the same, like he said to do. Because of Master Francesco’s meal plan, I was able to cut my cleaning time in Half (Sometimes more than that). Thank you, Master Francisco. You have helped me a lot. I wish his old faggot had at least tried it; it wasn’t so bad after you get used to it. I recommend every fag brother at least try it and maybe tweak it a little bit if you need to, like I did. You don’t have a lot to lose but Shit Right. 😉 And it has helped slim me down a bit more. Thank you again, Master Francisco!
I also wanted to say a huge Thank you to you, Sam, for two reasons.
One, I saw your post back in July telling Faggots to tell their masters and Alphas (and Kings) to say “Get me pregnant!” while they are getting fucked, and I knew that was such a hot idea I was going to do it the first chance I got when I got back to Texas, but of course, Brother Mika got to it first because I was so far away from King Karter. But when I got back, the first thing I did after my parents left, I drove to his place (Like he instructed) and submitted to him. He fucked me for 2 full days! (I got there about a week before classes started.) And after the first two hours of him rutting me (I almost forgot to say it.) But I remembered and started to beg him to get me pregnant, that I wanted his babies inside of me. He asked if I really wanted to. I kept saying, “Yes, please, sir, please, daddy, get me pregnant!” and it was like he flipped a switch. It was like an animal came out of him, and he was getting very rough, like the very first time he fucked me, (Almost harder maybe). He was pounding me so hard, and I know I lost consciousness a bit because he was choking me out. But it was crazy. I don’t know if it was because I didn’t get dick for like 2 1/2 months, so I was also dick starved. But he had a huge smile like an evil grin when I said it, and he just let loose. That was so fuckin hot. I would say, and I agree with Mika, if you are a faggot you have to try this on your alpha. It will make them go in fucking in heat and crazy!
The Second reason was for Locktober! So I had been back in Texas since before Labor day, (Which I have a huge update to tell you) But during that weekend he pulled me a side and told me he would like me to challenge myself and be locked for the full mounth of October, and I would only be able to take it off only a few times a week at his place, while he or at least #1 was there to watch me wash up. I still wasn’t ready to commit to a full month, but he really wanted me to, and said, “It would show my obedience and me wanting to be part of his Kingdom.” I felt bad, but I said I would think about it. I didn’t want to because I was afraid to let him down if I didn’t follow through for the whole month. Second, I also didn’t know how I could do it with me going to the gym a lot, I would have to find a way to change without others seeing, especially my friends, if I went with them. Third, I thought I would be too sexually frustrated because I just spent like the whole summer forced in a cage whenever I got horny or wanted to jerk off. I had already messed up 3 times. (One more time after I last emailed you). So I left it at that, until I saw and read your post and heard your podcast at the beginning of October. I saw and read it on October 3rd. After I saw the posts and the podcast, I texted King Karter and just texted, “I would like to take the challenge, Sir.” He ordered me to come over the next day (because it was very late) and he would lock me up, and keep the key there. I did, and even though I was almost having an anxiety attack driving there. He locked me up and kept the key. I did do a lot of poppers, so I would calm down a bit. I think that is one reason I like poppers is because I have Very High anxiety and even take meds sometimes to calm me down. Poppers help me a lot to calm myself down and help me focus. I know you don’t like them, but they do help me a lot. I have been locked since October 4th. King Karter had ordered me to be locked until November 5th, so I can do a whole month. At First, like the first few weeks, it was hard, sleeping on my stomach sucks sometimes, I have to put a small pillow under myself to raise my hips up a bit, and so it doesn’t cut into my pelvis and groin. And I was so horny, but after a few weeks, it got better. And also, your statements are all 100% true.
It clarifies a faggot’s mind, decluttering it. (Check) I feel more focused after a few weeks. And I don’t think about sex as much unless King wants it, then I want everything! 😉
It forces the faggot into a meditative state (Check). I want to serve him every day, Sexually, especially, but I will do anything he wants to texts me to do or get, and I have noticed I have less frequent anxiety attacks, although I still have them. I don’t think chastity is a cure for it, but it does help calm me down, I think.
It humbles the faggot (Check). I certainly have been humbled, and I feel more subservient to him and most other men, at work or with friends, even.
It helps the faggot appreciate the power of Men (Check), same as with 3.
It makes the faggot hungrier for service (Check, Check, and Double Check). I think the whole summer I have been so starved for cock and not able to jerk my own has made me want his and any man’s cock so ,, so much more. Whenever he fucks me now, I feel so much more need to have him in me. And I want him to give me to any other King that wants to use me too.
It forces the faggot to accept the natural differences between a Man and itself. (Check) I can respect Hierarchy more, also Kings and Other Alpha Men, their power and strength. I have always been around it because of sports and the locker room, but I have a greater appreciation for them and the difference it has for me being a faggot. (and same as 4)
So thank you, Sam, for helping to push me into taking Locktober seriously and helping me. I was able to get around the changing in the locker room by just facing the corner all of the time, or I would tell my friends I had to take a piss and just change in the stall, so it worked out for the most part. I do not know if I will stay locked up like most of the time, like #1, he is locked like almost 24/7, but I will probably be more like #3, is, he is locked up sometimes when not at the apartment or whenever King Karters demands it. (which he says is getting more and more often, 3 Things he is trying to get him to be more 24/7 like #1. So I will keep you updated on how much I do it after the 5th.
I’m so glad that Ethan tried and stuck to the incredible “diet for faggots” published here by Master Francesco! So many faggots welcomed that diet plan, but after the initial interest it seemed like most fell away. It really goes to show the seriousness with which Ethan approaches his faghood, and that pro-active attitude has led to Ethan’s success as a faggot.
I’m also quite happy/impressed with Ethan’s genuine revelations involving chastity. It’s really all of those things and more! The fact that Ethan tried it and stuck to it in order to honor his Master and his own purpose says so much about Ethan as a person and a faggot. I’m so proud to be able to call him my brother!
However, I will add this: I think Ethan should not try to hide his chastity in the locker rooms. AFter all, he’s a beautiful faggot owned by a powerful God Alpha. Why be ashamed of that? By displaying his chastity, Ethan can show other Alphas in there what is possible if they took ownership of a faggot. It will make all male onlookers feel more powerful. There are only positives from doing this.
Summer Recap. So, last time I emailed you, I got a job in a nice restaurant as a server. But I was not so good at it, but the manager liked me, so he kept me, but had me help out in the bar. I guess I used my skills from Starbucks because I was pretty good at it. I didn’t have a license and the training you have to have to serve alcohol in California, so I was just like a bar back. But it gave me a lot of experience that I used to get a bar back job in Texas. You do need a certificate here, so I am taking a few courses to get it to serve in Texas. I got a job as a bar back, and it’s working out pretty good! King Karter was right, I do make a lot more money than at Starbucks, and the hours are a bit longer, but the times work around my schedule a lot better, and I love interacting with the customers.
King Karter wanted me to come out to my family as at least gay, maybe even a faggot too. I told you about my dad’s side, and I did not end up telling them, but I told my mom (I was gay), and she was chill about it. I decided to keep the Faggot stuff out at least for now; I don’t think she would understand.
I wasn’t able to convince them about moving out of the dorms just yet, but I was able to get a single room because I’m a junior now. I was able to convince them that if I’m good financially and my grades are good, by the end of this semester, I can move out with a friend by the second semester, in January. Because they pay for most of the rent in the dorms, I have to follow their rules. But King Karter did get me and #3 a one-bedroom apartment, and I basically live there on the weekend. So we can get used to us living together 24/7, which isn’t really hard, we are like brothers, and are becoming really good friends. Since I come over on the weekends and he is there most of the week, I take the bed on Friday and Saturday night, unless he has a date and they need the bed. And he sleeps on the couch. When I officially move in, we will take turns, unless one of us has a date King Karter has found for us. King Karter said he will send dates to the apartment for us sometimes, sometimes we will meet them at their place, or wherever they want to meet up. He said he might have them come to my dorm once in a while since I have a single now, but we have to be careful so we don’t get caught.
Like my suggestion about parading his chastity in the locker room, King Karter is pushing his faggot to be honest with his family. This is a good thing most likely, although I’m sure King Karter wants him to do this in order to cut away any family control over his faggot.
Throughout this update Ethan will be referring to “dates”. However, he is not referring to dates like the ones people engage in when they’re interested in someone. These dates are pre-arranged by King Karter so that his faggots can service his Alpha Pack friends (sometimes for money). Just wanted you to keep that in mind.
Last, I need to tell you about a huge party King Karter brought all 3 of us over to on Labor Day weekend. I was already back for about 1 and 1/2 weeks. King Karter told me a few of his friends are having a Cookout, it was at another King’s house, basically, a Cookout is a party that lasts about 2 -3, sometimes 4 days, and Kings bring their white faggots and they all just fuck and smoke, eat, and get worshiped all weekend. #3 said they have one on or around July 4th, and around Christmas time, on Labor Day, and Thanksgiving, and maybe once some other time during the year. I have never been to one because I found King Karter later in the year, and I was away over the summer. King Karter said I must go because he wanted to show me off to all of his friends. He would get me a lot of dates that way. There were like 9 kings there, that includes King Karter, and 6 Faggots, (A few faggots and Kings would come and go because of like work obligations, or family stuff.) King Karter had me, #1 and #3. There was a barber guy who had a 19-year-old white fag. The faggot told me he works in the back of the barber shop to help clean and “help” with the special customers. There was one king who had 2 other faggots. King R and King L were there, but they were the only Kings I knew. Most of the faggots were in their 20s-30s, like me, and one was 19, and one was older, like in his late 40s, I think. We all took turns serving them, #1 and one other older fags made stations for us and had us on a rotation. One was bartending; I was on that station a lot because of my experience. A lot of kings liked my drinks because I am a bit heavy-handed. Two of the stations were serving food, and one of the stations was the bathroom attendant. We had to sit/ keel in the shower the whole time, and if an alpha wanted to take a piss, we had to become their urnal. One faggot also allowed them to shit in his mouth. One of the Kings is really into that and has his fag do it all of the time. King Karter said I didn’t have to do it this time, but he would like me to think about it for future parties and dates. I don’t think I will do that, but I also didn’t think I would like piss, but now, after not having alpha piss on me or in my mouth all summer, I actually like being pissed on a lot more. And I like drinking it more often now, not so much when it’s dark and yellow, it’s still rank, but I have liked the sub space it gets me into. King Karter said he would not make me do the shit thing if I really didn’t want to, but he said that Kings pays really well if he gets a faggot willing to do it. #3 said he has done it a few times, said 1 will do it, both said only if they pay King Karter a substantial amount. I told #3 I probably won’t do it.
I hope this doesn’t make me a bad faggot, Do you think I should do things I wouldn’t normally do, like things I might think are disgusting? I know you think Shit is a hard no, and I do too, but King Karter was right about me liking to drink his Piss after I got used to it. Does it make a faggot a bad faggot if they do not do what their Alpha/King wants them to do, but doesn’t really force the faggot to do it? Like, does it make me not as obedient then if I were to do it?
I just want to reassure Ethan that refusing to eat shit does not make him a bad faggot. Alphas who try to force faggots to do that have mental/emotional issues and are trying to harm the fag. There’s nothing safe about eating shit, and there’s no benefit except to fulfill some disgusting sadism.
Back to the party, so it lasted like 3 days, we (Faggots) took turns sleeping in one of the closets, the Kings got all the beds. It was like an orgy all weekend. Before going, King Karter told me I am to serve them in everything they wish, just as I serve him. It started with all of us faggots standing and kneeling and getting in the worship pose before telling them all each individually, that we are their faggot and we are here to service them this weekend, asking them to please use our bodies for whatever needs they had, whether it was for fucking, pissing on, or slapping around to get some aggression out. (That wasn’t so much this time, but #3 said sometimes it happens, like if they are stressed at work or from girlfreinds or life, or something) You know the porn videos where the white boy is on his knees surrounded by like 4-5 big huge black cocks, in his face, and going back and forth sucking them all, like that was me, like 5 times that weekend! ahhaa. I was also taken to one of the bedrooms on the first night and had my first gang bang with almost all of the kings; they all took turns fucking me. At one time, King Karter came in with one of his friends, and was just watching me from the doorway with a big like evil grin on his face, stroking his fat black dick. We were making eye contact as I was in doggy style getting fucked so hard. Eventually, they had him come over, and I started riding him, while he was fucking me, two of the kings, King R and another, I forgot his name, said they wanted to DP me. I looked at King Karter, almost trying to tell him I wasn’t sure I was ready, but he told them yes. So they tried. I was lying on King R’s stomach, facing him, and the other king got behind me and on top of me, was trying to fuck me at the same time. It was ok at first. Not a lot of discomfort, then it started hurting more, so after about 4-5 minutes, I asked them to stop. King Karter, I could tell, was disappointed, but he had them stop. I had been practicing over the summer with my dildos like I emailed you. But after that one time I emailed you about it hurting a lot, I stopped. King Karter said he was a bit disappointed, but he would like me to keep practicing more often now that I have a single room dorm. So by my first date, I could take it much longer.
Again, I don’t think Ethan should feel terrible about failing the DP experience. We’re talking about BLACK ALPHA COCK. Usually ONE black dick is tough enough to take, let alone two! Poppers might’ve made a slight difference here, but sometimes a hole can only stretch so much. I think King Karter made the right decision, especially if he wants his faggot’s hole to be usable in the future.
That leaves me to the end, He had my first ever date booked for next weekend for 4 days!! (I guess originally it was just going to be for the weekend, but after the party, the client extended it to all four days.) King Karter won’t tell me who it’s with yet, which makes me a little nervous, but I trust him. I am going to miss a few classes on Monday, and I have off on Tuesday because of Veterans Day. But I will make it up! I am both excited and very nervous. He said he had booked this one first and had 2 more before the summer ended, but after the party, he had like 10 more that he either booked or are in the works. I was a bit surprised I was that popular. I know one King kept saying to King Karter, “You’re going to make a lot of money on this Phat White Ass,” multiple times while he was slapping and squeezing my ass all weekend during the party. I know he was at least one of the ones who booked me. I am nervous and so excited at the same time.
So again, sorry I did not update you sooner. I will try to make it more common; I have just been so busy with everything. With classes, my new job, and serving King, like 3 times a week, as well as going to the gym like 4-5 times a week, and trying to keep a social life, I have a lot going on.
Thanks again to Master Francesco and to you for the help this summer for making me a better faggot and helping with my experience at serving King Karter and other Alphas and Kings!
What an update!
I’m incredibly proud of my brother Ethan for his performance! Nothing that King Karter has thrown at Ethan has been easy, but Ethan (like the best faggots) gamely tries his best to fulfill the demands of his Master!
I love that Ethan is experiencing what it feels like to be desired by hungry black Alphas. These Kings are circling Ethan like hungry sharks! Ethan’s gym-toned body and compliant, obedient attitude turns Men and Alphas on! They all want some one-on-one time with a premium faggot like Ethan!
But I think Ethan’s story highlights the importance of faggots taking their purpose seriously. He’s putting in the work, trying new aspects of his calling (like chastity), and exploring the richness he discovers with each passing day under King Karter.
I can only imagine how proud King Karter is of his latest faggot acquisition. After all, an Alpha’s faggot reflects on HIM.
And if that’s the case, then King Karter is the most glorified Alpha on Earth!