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This is a link to my bdsmlr blogpost but i will copy my experience here. I dont wanna take your time dear Sam but I always think of you in these moments because you helped me a lot with understanding how I am. This is nothing new for you but it still fascinates me how nature works and what we know now about it.
So i met this alpha guy on Romeo. He doesnt live in my town but 2.5h drive. He was sexy muscular blonde bully type with a thick cock. And i dont have sex often ,I pick my guys I need to be attracted to the in order to have sex and this is my type. So when he offered to come ,i said yes to this happening with appreciation . Usually for these type of guys that I consider straight ,I always cross dress and lock up in chastity for them . I dont mind the contrast between us and they love it and most of the time demand it. So because Im picky I dont have sex very often and I am a lazy fagboi ,and I dont train my pussy ever with a dildo just due to laziness of needing to douche before toyplay. I did prep for this guy with a smaller dildo before he came. And here is what happened – he fucked me 3 times in 1h ,i cleaned his dick after every anal penetration and he was expecting me to ,but he treated my ass as any girls pussy . He just sticked it in and start fucking like he would fuck a girls pussy. And the pain wasnt too crazy even though it was a lot and I just let him use me as he wants. I had one ibuprofen to take the pain edge off but it hurt so bad ,at the beginning especially and after a bit of fucking i got used it. The thing is – this happened 1.2 2026. and now is 3.5.2026 that im writing this post and it STILL HURTS. He obviously did some damage but nothing too serious ,no infections ,even though periodically I had a bit of blood on the toilet paper and there would be some lingering pain after bowel movements. Its getting better and healing slowly because of the nature of that area being used for bowel movements. I cant fuck anyone else until it passes and this is the part that is interesting to me ,each time my ass hurts I think of him ,and I somewhat enjoy it and I would do it all again. Fag brains fascinate me ! We let men abuse and damage our bodies and we thank them and crave more. I am proud that I took that like a champ that being I let another male use and degrade me for his own pleasure. How crazy is that?? And it seems like no amount of post nut clarity or psychological workarounds can cure me from wanting more. I dont like pain ,i dont crave being destroyed by an alpha but the fact I am willing to put up with my body being damaged to a certain degree for just a bit of HIS temporary pleasure fascinates me. He doesnt give a shit about me ,maybe we will never meet up again ,god knows he hasnt called me and yet I would let him do it all over again. Arent we so cute as fags hehe . It really makes sense to me that we are a special kind of being,created my nature to serve these alpha kings. It just resonates and it feels like truth not some acquired fetish taste. And i know this because I sucked a boy when I was 6 years old and he didnt want to suck me back (i didnt mind even back then) and later on he had only girlfriends and I remained a fag. Nature is so fascinating ,cant wait to have more revelations about this subject . Thank you for reading .
Thank you for writing!
I think a lot of faggots will relate to your feelings, brother. I know I still have “phantom pain” from my rape many years ago. I think back to bleeding for days afterward with a mixture of horror, pride, and, morbidly, some excitement. That pain was excruciating, as were some of the larger black Alphas who’ve fucked me. My pussy still tingles at just the memories!
But you’re right: faggots are a special type of creation. We are very much like dogs in that, no matter how badly one might treat a dog, it’ll still come back, trying to please. We derive so much pleasure emotionally from serving that it glosses over the pain we endure (or makes it more bearable).
Smart Alphas understand that about faggots!
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