I’m 19, gay, and I’ve been thinking about this more and more lately and wanted to hear from people who might understand.

I grew up with my single dad  who is in his mid 40s and older brother who is 21. My dad played college football back in the day and even now he still has that presence. Tall, broad shoulders, built, confident without trying. My brother took after him almost exactly. Same height, same frame, same way people just seem drawn to him.

Growing up I always idolized them and tried to emulate them, but it wasn’t really until I was in highschool that I realized we weren’t really the same. I held out for a growth spurt and some excess confidence that never came.

They are both very supportive of me even when I came out as gay (my dad even told me he fooled around in college), but I just realized even without the gay part people would never see me the way that they see them.

It seemed like girls and guys always orbited my brother, he was the quarter back on the football team. My dad never seemed to chase attention but somehow always had women chasing after him, even cause a minor scandal when he was caught with my friends mom who was married. My brother’s the same. He doesn’t really try and still people want to be around him. Even other guys seem to naturally defer to him.

Then there’s me.

I’m short. Skinny. Never athletic. I’m gay, which I don’t think caused it, but it made me notice dynamics differently. I’m not intimidating, not dominant, not the guy people look at when he walks into a room. I’ve always felt more comfortable observing than leading. I think if it weren’t for my brother I probably would have been fucked with a lot more in school. The football team kind of acted like a squad of bully’s but they wouldn’t do anything if it was against him.

For a long time I thought I’d eventually grow into being like them. But lately I’ve accepted I’m just not built for that role. I found your website looking to alpha males and honestly I think I’m a faggot.

Not in a self-hating way. More like realizing some people seem naturally suited to being the center of gravity and others aren’t.

I look at my dad and brother and think, these are alphas. Since the house was just guys, it was always pretty bro-y. We’d hang out in just in our underwear, rough house, talk in rude and gross ways.

Honestly, a big part of my gay awakening was when I was in middleschool and I guess all my dad’s underwear was dirty because he wasn’t in his usual underwear, he was just hanging out naked. I hadn’t grown pubes yet, and had never seen a grown man’s dick. I was in awe at the hair, his size, and even the smell that filled the room. I asked him why mine wasn’t like that and he said when I became a man, mine would grow to be like his (not even close).

Ever since then I have since around then loved smelling their underwear whenever I get the chance.

Anyways, this leads up to the main reason I am writing in. My brother went to school out of state 3 years ago, but I started going to a local community college so for the past few years it’s just been me and dad.

This Saturday, we were watching a movie and he was drinking a bit. Shooting the shit like usual. Out of no where he asked me if I was bottom? I took a second to process that he’d ask me something like that. I told him that I haven’t had an experiences other than oral, but that I think so. He said he figured and grinned a little bit while he sipped his beer. That offended me a little bit and he asked him why. He asked if I thought I was always sneaky grabbing his dirty underwear out of the hamper. I was probably as red as a tomato I was so embarrassed. “You could always just ask, bud” and he chuckled a bit  and grabbed his bulge. He was just wearing tighty whities. I was so flustered I couldn’t think of how to respond, I was embarrassed that I knew what I was doing, embarrassed that he could tell I was a bottom. I just turned my head toward the movie but honestly could not take in any of the information.

I don’t know how many he had, but he was definitely feeling it. He pulled out his giant veiny dick and said “You can always come straight to the source”. I had never seen it hard and it was like a pornstar’s. I was in shock but then he was even clearer “You can suck on it if you want”. I couldn’t believe this was actually happening. I got on my knees in front of him. He kept chuckling. I put his tip in my mouth and start sucking. I knew the scent and taste so well from his underwear but it was stronger and triggered something it me. Tried to get my lips to the base but I couldn’t so I just sucked on the top half and worked the base with my hands. He must have been needed it because he came in my mouth after about 2 minutes. I swallowed. It was amazing. But suddenly the reality that I just sucked my dad’s dick. He patted me on the head and said I was a good boy, while he put it back in his underwear.

I was full of excitement, and horror, and his cum. It was my ultimate fantasy but now I wondered what this meant for our family. He just turned back to the movie but I ran to my room. Furiously masturbated and then went to sleep.

When I woke up I could still taste his musk. And at first I savored it before getting in my head again and hoping he was too drunk and wouldn’t remember it.

When I went downstairs he was already up and had made coffee. So I was pretty sure he wasn’t so drunk he wouldn’t remember. My fear was confirmed when he asked why I ran off so quick last night. I was horrified but we had a good and incredibly embarrassing conversation. He said he had used lots of boys like me in college. I shouldn’t be ashamed of who I am. That we were in this together and that we could both help each other out. He said it was completely up to me but that he could tell by how quickly I got on my knees that I’d want more. We had a pretty normal lazy Sunday after that but my mind keeps racing.

Do you have any advice? Have you heard of other alpha fathers using their faggot sons? Is this natural?

My little brother, thank you for writing to me!

I must admit, I’m a little disappointed in myself. I’ve been at this so long and have had so many really crazy true stories that I feel like I should’ve seen that wild plot twist in your experience coming a mile away! I can only imagine how you felt and how confused you must be right now!

Let me answer this in “reverse”. Yes, I’ve covered multiple “Alpha Father sexually uses his faggot son” scenarios over the 11-year lifespan of this site. I’ve never seen any turn out negatively; in fact, quite the opposite! In possibly the most remarkable example, God Alpha Dino used (and occasionally still does use) his faggot son Jimmy. Their stories can be found in the right sidebar or by following the links I’ve provided.

The world condemns such relations between fathers and sons, of course, but hierarchy doesn’t operate within the narrow parameters of “moral values”. Hierarchy distills relationships (especially male relationships) into the pure animal instincts found within the power and dominance. At that level, your Dad ceases to be your father and simply transforms into a feral and dominant Alpha with needs that supersedes yours as the faggot programmed to satisfy them.

It’s that instinctive wiring we all have that caused your Dad to understand what you are and pull out his dick, and the instinctive wiring in you that caused you to immediately kneel and service him. Can you see that, feel that, understand that? I bet you can, and I bet your Dad can, too.

That’s why I don’t consider this situation to be “wrong”. You and your Dad are simply two males fulfilling roles you were born to play hierarchically.

It’s not surprising that your Dad used faggots in school. Many straight Alphas do. I’ve been the “first faggot” to multiple straight Alphas, so I can say it with confidence that straight Alphas possibly understand best how to use and train faggots because they are typically more in-touch with pure, unfettered masculinity. Your Dad has likely known what you are for a long time, but like any great Alpha he watched over your development and acted only when he felt it was the right time to teach you these important hierarchical lessons.

In some ways, having a Dad who is also a Master is the best situation for young faggots. Your Dad can train you with love and care, something that isn’t always guaranteed out in the world. Your Dad can strengthen your self-esteem, something lacking in many faggots. This will help you make better choices so that your precious gift of submissive service isn’t wasted on unworthy pretenders.

There is no better example of this than Jimmy. Master Dino’s use of his faggot son and the training he’s provided him has made Jimmy into one of the strongest faggots I know, and Jimmy is constantly overjoyed by the privilege he has serving both his God Alpha father and his two Alpha brothers (again, I strongly encourage you to read those threads).

I hope my answer covers your initial concerns, little brother. I know you’re reeling from all of this, but sharing these feelings with your Dad will help him understand how to guide you. I would really like you to share this post with him so he can read what you wrote and how I responded. You are, after all, his faggot … so he should be involved in any influences on you.

I’m always here if you need me. Please feel free to write to me anytime!

Love,

sam the faggot

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One of the most delicate gifts I ever receive with this site is trust. I safeguard the trust of those who give it to me like my very existence depended upon it. The secrets I’ve held over the years would blow your mind; entire threads have gone unpublished simply because I didn’t want to risk those who came to me in trust. I will never betray anyone who comes to me in good faith.

And that is especially true when a parent comes to me for help with their children.

So often I receive messages from confused, shocked, or frightened parents who are unsure of what to do with their child who seems to be too powerful to control (like young Master Lucas) or too feminine to fit in with boys (the many young faggots I’ve counseled over the years). These parents (usually fathers) write me letters filled with fear and desperation, so eager to understand their suddenly-distant and struggling son. It truly wrenches my heart every time.

I wish some of these inspiring fathers could replace my own father, who knew I was a fucked-up kid and decided to largely turn his back on me. The fact that these glorious Men work so tirelessly to reach the hearts of their sons makes me hope for a time of better understanding ahead!

The latest example of such a great father is a Man named Alex. He lost his wife a few years ago, and he’s been raising his son Samuel (hey, great name!) by himself ever since.

The wrinkle is this: Samuel is fairly obviously a faggot.

Of course, as a straight Man, Sir Alex knows next-to-nothing about this or what might best benefit his son. But one thing is certain: Sir Alex wants whatever is best for him and will finally bring his son back to life since the death of his mother. And I can think of nothing more noble and beautiful in this broken world than that!

There is one interesting aspect to this story near the end, but I’ll let Sir Alex tell it:

Hello! My name is Alex, I am 39, talking from Mexico. I’d like to share my story with you, Sam. I have a 19-year-old son called Samuel just like you. I got married when I was his age, and he was born when I was 20. I wanted to spend my whole life with his mother as my loyal wife and raise Sam to be confident and successful man. But tragically my wife had cancer and passed away in 2021, when Sam was 15. Since then, I have committed my whole life to take care of my boy, night and day. My top priority in life is to see Sam happy, no matter who he is or what he feels.

Sam has always been very obedient and a really good boy at school and at home. When he was 5 or 6 he used to love Barbie movies and he spent most of his teenage years watching make-up tutorials online. So for me it is very obvious that he is gay, and this is totally fine for me. I love him no matter what. I am very young and always try to be a open-minded father for my son. But since my wife passed away Sam has been really depressed and I feel that I hardly ever see his beautiful smile nowadays. I talk a lot with him about the importance of moving forward, and that his mom wouldn’t want to see us suffering forever. But it’s been really hard to navigate this.

But the reason why I am telling you these things is because my best friend from school, whom I’ve been friends with for 25 years now, is gay and married to another guy. His name is Pablo and has known Sam since he was born, he was always the nice uncle (although not blood related) bringing presents to my son. When my wife passed away, he proved to be a real brother and gave a lot of support to Sam when I needed to work. I’ve asked Pablo many times if he thinks Sam is gay, and since my kid was 12 Pablo had no doubts that Sam was gay. More recently, I’ve tried anything to see my son happy again, you have no idea. There is nothing in the world that I want more than seeing my son moving forward and having a happy life. So a few weeks ago, since they are so close to each other, my friend Pablo asked me if I would allow Sam to spend some time at his place with his husband.

At first, I didn’t like the idea because I’ve protected Sam with my own hands since he was born. But Pablo was very honest to me and said that in his opinion my son is lost and he needs a male figure that I cannot be for him. He said that with his husband Sam would have a better environment to relax, open his mind, and explore his identity. We’ve been friends for 25 years and know everything about each other’s life, so I was very straightforward and asked him if he wanted to have sex with my son. Then he admitted that it wouldn’t be a bad idea because Sam is a virgin and needs to have a real Man guiding him. Pablo thinks that losing his virginity with someone he trusts will make Sam see other possibilities in life.

As I said, I’m very open-minded and would accept my son no matter what. But I don’t know how to react. Pablo said that he will not try to seduce my son without my consent, but he truly believes that it’s time for me to let it go. I asked Sam if he would like to spend a few weeks with Pablo and his husband, and my son opened a big smile and was really excited about the idea. I also should say that Sam loves social media and loves to put sexy pictures wearing his swim trunks for his close friends on Instagram stories. And do you know how I found it out? I am not on his close friends, but Pablo was, and I suspect that Sam only had Pablo in his close friends because my son is very shy and would not show sexy pictures to anyone.

So I have many hints that Sam is into Pablo, but at the same time I’m afraid that this is a bad idea. I wanted my son to find a boyfriend his age who would treat him well, and love him. I have never thought about my best friend to do so. He has a open relationship with his husband, but I don’t want my son to be just a little side fun for them. I trust Pablo more than anyone else on Earth, and he told me that he wants to “take care” of my son, not just have sex.

After some time discussing this, Pablo said that he has been following your work for many years on Twitter, and sent me this website. He told me to read some stories and learn about hierarchy. And I did it. I understand everything you say here, and I understand that some men are submissive, others are not. I can deal with all of that, and that’s fine. But in Sam’s case, I really need an outside opinion before deciding what to do with my son.

In any case, I would like to thank you for your time and I hope you could share your thoughts with me.

Hopefully this beautiful letter moved you the same way it did me! I’d love to give Sir Alex a hug for trusting me with this!

Given what I know, it’s clear that (a) Samuel is a natural-born faggot, and (b) Sir Alex’s best friend Pablo is an Alpha and Master who seems very much to be a Protector Alpha (certainly he would be for Samuel, anyway).

In theory I wholeheartedly agree with Master Pablo that Samuel needs to be given a chance to serve a Man as he was born to do. Fulfillment of purpose is something we all strive for in our own way. When we realize that purpose, it opens all of the locked doors in our hearts and minds. Samuel deserves to experience that just like anyone else. In fact, I suggest he might need it even more than most.

When a faggot loses a mother, the faggot loses his first true ally (most of the time). Men are frightening and distant to most young faggots, so a motherless faggot often withdraws. It’s something that simply can’t be avoided at this stage of development.

But Master Pablo seems to understand what I do, that Samuel would likely blossom with training, simple things like foot worship, and some sexual experience. The fact that Samuel opened up immediately to the idea of staying with Master Pablo tells me a lot about Samuel’s interests and desires.

To my dear Sir, Alex, I just want to say that Samuel will be okay in the care of your best friend. He’s not going to corrupt your son or ever hurt him. In fact, Master Pablo will be working to FREE your son. Your little boy has been Master Pablo’s little boy, too. He’s cared for Samuel as if he were his own son. Master Pablo will only ever seek the best for Samuel, just as you always will.

But there are simply some things a father generally cannot do for his son. This is one of them when that son is a faggot.

I’m sure there will be a time when Samuel understands this moment in time, a moment when Sir Alex made a brave and wise decision to give him freedom and a chance to find purpose. At that time he will hug his father tightly, tears in his eyes, and thank him for such a blessing!

But until then, Sir Alex, you have my utmost respect and everlasting thanks! Please keep me informed when possible, Sir!