Questions From Readers

Hi Sam,

This is the first time I’m writing to you on the site, but I would like to share my story if you think it’s appropriate. Thanks to you, I have discovered my nature as a faggot. I have learned about hierarchy and my place at the feet of alpha men. I am grateful to you. My name is Antoine (on social media, I go by Lucien, like my crush). I am Italian, 35 years old, and I am a virgin. Lucien is a former Swiss guard, straight, and alpha, and I am madly in love with him. I was fortunate to live with him for a few months in Rome, and I always showed myself to be available and submissive, obviously without telling him anything, but I tried to make him understand my devotion through my availability and by helping him with many things. I also visited him in Switzerland, and those were the most beautiful moments of my life. In the end, we both returned to our own places, and the distance made me realize how much I depended on him. I bought your book “Can I Serve You?” and I found it fantastic. Thanks to our discussions on X, I was convinced to confess my feelings. Since I did, he hasn’t been treating me the same way; he ignores me, we don’t talk on the phone anymore, he says he has work problems and doesn’t want to. I even offered to help him financially, but he refused. I am desperate! In a few months, I will meet him in Rome with a group of friends who know nothing about all this, and he will be staying with others instead of with me. I have become so jealous that I made it obvious to him, and he responded annoyed, “Stop with these childish things, or I will kick you out of the group.” I am desperate, Sam. Help me; how should I behave when I meet him in front of everyone else? I m a faggot Sam, I need to serve an alpha, to be ed by an alpha. Thank you, Sam; you are precious.

Brother, thanks for telling your story here on the site! 

Lucien does sound like an amazing, very dominant Alpha. I can see why you love him and worship him so much!

It does seem like you’ve pushed him too far or been too needy/desperate with him, and that clinginess is bad for Alphas. They don’t like that, and sometimes react angrily to it. You need to relax and be submissive and quiet and let him dictate things for a bit. Perhaps the trip to Rome might be a chance to offer him help or gift him something, but I wouldn’t make a big production out of it if you do. You really need to allow him to take the lead if he chooses. 

This is a dance. Occasionally a toe gets stepped on, but that doesn’t mean the dance is over. Keep trying.

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