Hi Sam, I am a 56 years old fag. I am a big fan of muscular tall strong jock. I tried to find some alpha’s here, and end up juste emptying their balls. But not much more. I would love to try to be a domestic fag, but also, serve my master and his friends, while they watch their match.

Long story, short, I have no chance here with Recon, think there is less of a croud for that here then in US.

I offer my free massage service, but, again, only happens now and then.

I cant help to stare to the muscular guys at the gym. Those men need to be emptied, I can feel it and have their body worshipped.

Any advice how to find a regular alpha to serve here?

First of all, I congratulate you on what seems to be quite a successful record of serving Alphas! You sound frustrated, but that’s a lot of Alphas you’ve served in some way! 

Recently I’ve highlighted techniques a few faggots have used to generate Alpha interest. Faggots have used my approaches, as well as the “Letter To An Alpha” post featured in the right sidebar. I’m emphasizing these approaches because those Alphas in the gym that you’re leering over can be respectfully approached and engaged. Compliments work, asking for tips, offering them help, asking them if they consider themselves to be Alpha … all of these approaches can be utilized. 

They aren’t going to beat you up. At most, they’ll say no. You have nothing to lose and everything to gain.  

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Hi Sam, how are you doing? I’m from Brazil, 32 years old, and I’ve been a long-time follower of your site (FWA). After your absence, I noticed the site went down, and honestly, I was devastated… it was a true oasis of information and content about the Hierarchy for me. It was the first site where, when I read it, it became crystal clear to me what I truly was: a submissive faggot.

To my joy, this week I “rediscovered” that the address has changed, but you’re back! Welcome back!

I’ve always thought about writing to you, and today I finally took the initiative.

You know, Sam… I’ve always admired virile, masculine men. I rarely have sex with other gay men, as my arousal comes from being used by a brute specimen (and the gay men I know rarely are). I have a normal life, I’m not out, but whenever I can, I go to certain gas stations (popular with truckers spending the night) and bars (I look for the ones with a higher proportion of men). In these environments, I easily find the kind of man that excites me: rough, rugged, ogre-like, macho, virile, and most of the time, needing a hole to stick their cock in and have some fun.

I don’t have mannerisms or a voice that easily identifies me as gay, but in these environments, I always try to wear tight jeans that really show off my huge, round ass. I get absolutely ecstatic watching the men there looking at me curiously. Some even try to approach me. Sometimes a simple conversation happens. But my biggest difficulty, Sam, is getting them to realize what I truly am – without exposing myself to too much risk – in these environments. Would you know how to help me?

Thank you so much,

From your big Brazilian admirer.

Brother thank you for writing and for your support over the years! 

I wish I could say there is some copy/paste solution to your question. It’s not difficult to chat with an Alpha (even though you might feel nervous) and help him to see things in a new light (including you).

Be complimentary, particularly about his body. Doing this helps him focus on his sex appeal. Then steer the conversation toward questions about Hierarchy in order to help him start thinking about his place within it. Simply ask him: “Do you consider yourself to be Alpha?” This is a seemingly-innocent question, but it’s loaded implications about his own self-worth and power. From his answer to that question, it’s relatively easy to begin a discussion about Hierarchy in general. 

Other methods involve buying him something you know he wants or can use, like supplements for workouts, or a new briefcase, or whatever. Or ask him to get a drink or got  to dinner, where you would pay. 

I’m just spitballing here, because much depends on the situation. 

I don’t know if you read that recent experience I published here where a faggot used my “Letter To An Alpha” to score with an Alpha. I’ve also written a book “May I Serve You Sir?” that’s designed to be given to Alphas. 

I’ve created tools for a reason. It just takes a faggot willing to TRY and use them. That’s my advice to you: TRY. 

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Do you know why I’m building Hierarchy University? Well, it’s certainly not for the money, fame, or adulation, that’s for sure, because I’m not receiving any of that stuff.

It’s because I’ve spent my adult life as a faggot serving Men, and I’ve found success because I use an intelligent, informed approach to service combined with a discipline born from discipline. I’m far from the hottest faggot, but what I lack in looks I make up for in overall value and attitude.

I say this, not to brag, but to reinforce this: I know what I’m talking about. If you don’t believe my personal journey, then believe my RESULTS. I have an unprecedented nine-year record of changing lives with the things I teach here and the advice I give people. And with this University, I plan to help a lot more people.

I just need you all to TRY.

What follows is testimony left in my Questions From Readers inbox from a faggot in Germany. This faggot had an Alpha he wanted to approach, so he tried using my “Letter To An Alpha” as a way in (you’ll see a graphic link to this in the right sidebar).

AND IT WORKED! Read on:

Hello Sam! I am a faggot from Germany and I can’t thank you enough. I am 20 years old and I know who I am since I am 6 or 7, but I only had very traditional relationships because I had no idea how to approach an Alpha man. I found your website a few days ago, and after being reluctant for a while I sent your “letter for an Alpha” to a my classmate from college. At first he took it as a joke and said something like “I wish so bad that this thing were true.” I just said that I could go to his house today to show him how serious I am. Long story short, its almost 4 AM in the morning now I feel like an obligation to say thanks to you and your amazing work. I knelt as soon as I entered his house and tried my best to show that I wasn’t joking or simply on a fetish. I want to be owned! Sam, he got CRAZY when I got on my knees and put his dick out without saying a word. I sucked him, cooked for him, and got fucked the entire day. We missed classes today and stayed home fucking from 10 AM to 11 PM. I arrived home, brushed my teeth covered in Alpha cum, and when I took a shower I could feel my hole sore. He just stopped fucking me when his balls were really empty.

Well, I’m so happy right now, Sam. After this long day, he told me that he is not ready for a serious relationship and didn’t want to hurt my feelings. So I told him that I don’t wanna be his boyfriend, I am ready to be his property 24/7. Then I said that I will be only one of the many boys he will fuck. And his dick got hard again just to listen to this.

Sorry if this message is too long but I’m sooooooo fulfilled. I can feel his cum inside my ass and stomach, and that’s how every faggot in the world should feel when we go to bed.

YOU ARE AMAZING, SAM!!!

Hierarchy is true <3

Can you fucking believe how well that worked??

Actually, I can believe it. I know it works because I wrote that letter using conversational techniques I personally use to get into the minds of Alphas I talk to in real life when I’m opening their minds to the truth about Hierarchy.

If you would simply TRY like this young German faggot did, you can see the kind of overwhelming success he experienced. Think about it – not only did the faggot serve this Alpha, but he also TAUGHT this Alpha the truth … that he can own more faggots, have anything he wants, and be worshiped for being born superior.

That’s important. It’s life-changing. And it’s why I’m still here, nine years later, teaching the truth and changing lives.

This is Hierarchy University. Class is now in session.

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Hi Sam!

Your advice to faggots looking to explore their newly realized place in the hierarchy is inspiring. I am 23 years old and I work in the kitchen department of a Home Depot. As you can expect I am overwhelmed with straight blue collar alpha men day in and day out at work. I do my best to serve them as best as I can but my efforts are always just rewarded as “great customer service”. Although this recognition is nice I want these men to be able to see me for the faggot that I am and not just a retail associate that is good at their job. Any advice on how I can make my services stand out in way that demonstrates the hierarchy more clearly?

Greatly appreciated thanks

One thing working to your advantage is the fact that you’re working at Home Depot – known on the street as “Homo Depot” from all the cruising that goes on there. Just the bathroom stories alone could fill a coffee table book.

I will say that it’s difficult to try what you’re asking as an employee approaching a customer. I had a well-known early story thread involving “Home Depot Fag”, a faggot who purchased the items of an Alpha behind him in line that led to a service opportunity, but that was customer-on-customer. 

What you need to do to be successful here is to be able to talk engagingly. I just did this on the job about three weeks ago with an Alpha named Eddie. I met him on a job while he was with his wife, and by the time I was done with him I had his phone number and plans (that have not happened yet). 

My go-to move is to ask them if they consider themselves to be Alpha and then pivot into a discussion about Hierarchy. I don’t know what your engagement time is with these customers, but that’s probably your best bet.

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This post is part of a thread about a faggot called Prath who bravely sought to serve a straight local Alpha. CLICK HERE to read all of these posts in chronological order!

I feel like I have spent nine years preaching one thing continuously: faggots must take action if they want to be fulfilled.

A faggot cannot be fulfilled jerking off to porn, snorting poppers, playing games in chatrooms, living a heterosexual lie, or a million other stupid things they do instead of the one thing they must do: SERVE MEN.

It’s not hard to understand. If you have a critical, life-changing test to take, you simply cannot binge-watch television, get drunk/high every night, or be distracted at all. You actually need to buckle down, stop procrastinating, and do the study needed to pass the test.

For a faggot, serving an Alpha is that life-changing test. And most faggots are failing that test in the most pathetic ways.

I am a faggot who has lived my fag life boldly. I have relentlessly pursued service almost all of my adult life, and I’m happier and more fulfilled because of it. So from my vantage point, I can clearly see the path to the Promised Land for the rest of you to follow.

Sadly, so many fail to listen and remain lost.

But every so often a faggot listens to what I teach and my advice and puts it into practice, and with remarkable regularity the faggot SUCCEEDS!

One recent example is a faggot I’ll call Prath. When Prath first encountered me and my teaching on Hierarchy, it had the ring of truth. He recognized he was born to be a faggot. He asked me to help him, which I gladly did. However, I figured Prath would end up like the other scared, do-nothing faggots who ask for help.

Then I received this message:

Hey sam, Prath here. I would like to know how should I convince a local alpha guy and about hierarchy? Yes he is one of my coworker, he has a good body with bully personality. He always seeks attention etc. I didn’t noticed it before but from the 6 months I noticed that I have been getting changed about him. I am a team leader of 5 people team so I am at the status who always demands respect but around him i feel timid and different.

I replied this way:

You need to get into a conversation with him where you can ask him if he considers himself to be Alpha, then ask why he feels he’s Alpha. Then discuss Hierarchy.

So Prath said:

Once I was talking to him about gym and alphahood he was naturally accepting it to the point of health, fitness and command. He becomes so casual in no time. It just he is not familiar about hierarchy. I am thinking of the ways for to talk about hierarchy with him.

So I advised him this way:

Well when you discuss Alphahood with him, get him to agree that he was born different than lesser males. Once you get him to agree with that, start discussing the lower levels of the Hierarchy.

Specifically ask him if he feels like lesser males should follow his lead and obey him/serve him.

So some time passed, and I grew pessimistic. Then a few days ago I received this message from Prath:

Hey sam, today I invited him for the lunch and drinks. I prepared lunch myself for him. I thought it is good to talk about hierarchy in private instead of public. He came on time. He was surprised that why would I invite him so suddenly for lunch but he did not show. He was so natural without any hesitation at all like he was in his home. I took normal topics to start during lunch then I slowly moved towards hierarchy and alphahood about his gym and all. He told me that he has been with many girls I was surprised but then I knew it was natural for alpha man.

As you told me to tell him about difference of a lesser man and alpha he was quite open to it and hesitated it a little but then put himself without hiding his thoughts about lesser male or alphas. I showed him your Twitter page and he was shocked to see this kind of scenario even exist. But then he glanced at me with a smile and asked me directly what I take him as?

I did not had words at that time I hesitated and then said “as an alpha” he said he knew that already. He said he caught me many times glaring at his bulge many times but did not mentioned to me.

OH MY GOD!

Can you believe the boldness of this excellent faggot? It’s wonderful to see! Prath actually went over and above what I suggested by preparing food and setting an inviting private place to discuss Hierarchy. Wonderful!

Prath continued:

Yes it just happened sam. I was not sure how would he react about my words but he had some idea already. He said he used to of such glares. It was not new for him and reaction of people. Even after my words he was calm and composed. He was not in hurry. He was all ears to my words and actions. After seeing your page and few other he said “no doubt I am an alpha but that doesn’t mean I will take you as fag or slave so simply” I was surprised by his reaction. And left me in that situation with a message after leaving that he will see my determination about being a fag for him.

Listen, faggots, there is no excuse. If this timid faggot can offer service to a straight Alpha, so can you!

All Prath did was take my advice (advice I know works because I use it myself) and put it into practice! Would it have been the end of the world if the Alpha rejected him outright? Of course not!

But the Alpha DIDN’T reject him! Far from it! Now Prath has a terrific opportunity to find fulfillment!

You have access to the same tools Prath had. You have me, my advice, and the information here on the site and social media accounts.

Just DO SOMETHING WITH IT!

Here’s the situation. I’m in college in a dorm situation (not co-ed). I used to have 3 roommates, but they all left, so now I have my room all to myself, so I have been wanting to fuck real bad.

Because of my situation, I don’t get to have sex with girls as much as I want to. And I hate getting on Grindr because the fags there have this annoying pride and think they’re worth shit. Real turn off.

The situation is that I’ve identified 2 timid guys on my floor that I want to turn into fags. But the thing is that I’ve sort of built up a reputation of being mysterious and uncaring, because I don’t bother to even acknowledge sometimes the guys on my floor, whilst most of them are friends.

The thing is that I’m known as someone who doesn’t even want to chat, so how do I make it clear to these seemingly straight guys that I want to cunt them? I don’t want a thing of, “Why is he suddenly talking to me?”

Mind you, I’ve never had a fag before. But I want to be able to fuck or be serviced whenever I want.

Thank you Sir for writing to me!

I can absolutely appreciate the urgency you’re likely feeling right now. Alphas have a definite need to fuck, especially at your peak age, so I have no doubt you’re pent up and ready to pounce.

So let me first underline a couple of things, Sir. As an Alpha, it is your RIGHT to take whatever you want. Inferior males will naturally submit to Alphas if the Alpha asserts himself.

Which leads to this next point: it doesn’t matter what your reputation is in the dorm. You sound like a Sigma Alpha (lone wolf), which might make some people cautious around you, but Sigmas get served just like any other Alpha. That shouldn’t hinder you.

As an Alpha, you need to look at other humans like they’re prey to some degree (and I think you’re already naturally doing that given how you’ve identified those timid males) and it’s simply a matter of you finding targets and boldly pursuing them.

In pursuing prey, you can be very aggressive, much bolder than you even imagine. I’ll give you an example: I was once contacted by a straight college Alpha named Jin who asked me if I thought his roommate Chin was a faggot. After he described his roommate’s behaviors, I guessed Chin was likely a faggot. Jin wanted to know what he should do, so I advised him to order Chin to his knees and tell Chin to kiss his feet, then pull out his cock and make Chin suck it. Jin did that, and it worked. So Jin claimed Chin as his faggot, locked Chin in chastity, and even started bringing Chin to soccer practice so Chin could serve him. This led to two other straight Alpha teammates wanting their own faggots and getting them … a wild two-year saga. Anyway, Master Jin still owns Chin to this day (five years later!).

So hopefully you understand just how bold you can be in taking possession of faggots you find “in the wild” Sir. You need to appreciate that most faggots live lives of denial, fear, and confusion, and it’s only by an Alpha forcing them to embrace their true purpose that a faggot can ever find fulfillment. That’s what happened with me at age 17 when my straight Alpha friend forced me to my knees and throat fucked me. I served him for a year after that, and by the time he was done with me (he’d fallen in love with a girl) I knew exactly what I was and I never looked back. That’s exactly what could be the case with one or both of these timid males, Sir.

I suggest that you choose one and try a little small talk with him. Watch his body language and eye contact for clues about his level of submissiveness. If you get signals, tell him to kneel and suck your dick. Or tell him you want him to come to your room because you need a blowjob. Whatever works. Just be assertive. Faggots can’t help but obey.

Just remember Sir: you were born to be worshiped and served, and faggots exist so you may have that. It’s your RIGHT. So take it!

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Hi Sam,

First,Welcome back. Hope you are well.

Wondering if you could please give me some advice.

I’ve been DM’ing with a straight military dude on Tumblr. Through our chats I told him why I thought he was an alpha, gave him my thoughts on hierarchy, came out to him as a faggot wanting to serve an alpha and encourged him to assert his alphahood. He was interested in all of this and by the end of the chat he told me that he liked when I called him SIR and told me to address him like that always. He bid me a good night calling me his good faggot friend. Of course this left me swooning.

The next morning I left him a DM just saying that I was thinking of him and wishing him a good day. He simply replied with “Hey”

I feel like I might have overstepped or seemed needy.

because I saw him posting the whole day but he didn’t reach out to DM me.

My question is– how can I continue to engage him? Do I ask him questions? I’d like to get to know him better — he seems very cool and open. (He is obsessed with pussy and getting girls and he posts alot about that)

All to say, how can I develop some kind of connection to him that maybe could lead to him wanting me to be his faggot. Or is that hoping for too much?

Thanks Sam. Your advice is so appreciated.

This is why I don’t put a lot of stock in online service. There’s nowhere for it to go … unless you are willing to serve him as a cash fag.

You see, no straight Alpha wants to befriend a faggot online because there’s nothing there to benefit him. The only thing that will get his interest is money. So if you’re willing to serve him that way, then do it.

But I don’t know how else you can “be his faggot” unless you happen to live nearby, or you pack up and move to him (I don’t recommend it). 

Ultimately, you’re better off cultivating service relationships with local Alphas. That’s what I’ve done my whole adult life, and it works. Save the online stuff for the game players.

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Hi Sam!!

FagBoi G here. This might be a bit long, but there is an ending to it.. hehe.

I’ve always known i was a faggot, from the time I was maybe 3/4 years old. I always knew there was a hierarchy, and I was at the bottom of the entire Pyramid, because I always watched and admired Boys and Men, the way they were just being absolute true Alphas at a very young age. That intimidated me and hence I couldn’t really ever become friends with them, as I would stare too much at the shorts or just be admiring their rugged masculine looks, especially if men with tight muscles and tight pants.

I always knew I wanted cock, even tho I wasn’t sure what it would be at that tender age. But I learnt.

Unfortunately growing up in a society where being gay and afag was an absolute NO, I had to hide this and grew up with a lot of insecurity. I pretended to be a top for many years, never really enjoying the role at all but I always thought it made me “less gay” than sucking a cock or getting fucked my a Man, no idea why.

A few years ago the urge was too thick. I met a man who inused to top, and we discussed me getting fucked for the first time by Him.he was kind and elderly and talked me thru the process. one night atHis place, after a few drinks and a smoke, he took me. And His first entrance was entire. 9.5″ and deep. I couldn’t breathe.. but I knew at that very moment, my true destiny and desire was finally met. Having a Man inside my Bussy was like seeing God.

I’m so glad for the experience, and I’ve worked hard on being more open with myself aiut my true desires, and have sound so much peace.mt toy collection is not embarassing hehee, which now gets me to my question.

Can a faggot like me , I’m preety straight acting in society, learn to signal to Alphas that I would be honoured to suck them off and help them unload , just to make them relax and get action whenever they want? I know straight men don’t get any from their wives, and I feel my role on earth is to serve Them, provide Their shafts with pleasure as often as possible.

How does one signal to Alphas in society at work, in a bar, at the airport etc, that I am a FAGGOT willing to serve him.

Sorry if this was too long drawn out! Love your work!

Cheers,

FagBoi G.

Thanks for the extensive background! You have plenty of experience already upon which to draw, which is very good. 

One thing faggots need to keep in mind is that most (if not all) Alphas recognize them at some level regardless of what the faggot might do. Now, Alphas might not register this on a conscious level until a faggot starts talking to them. But I can tell you for sure that Alphas sense this weakness like a predatory animal can smell blood. 

So it’s up to the faggot to “expose its throat” so to speak. This requires going out on a limb (unless you’re going to wear a shirt openly declaring that you’re a faggot, which I make). Be complimentary, be generous (as in offering to pay for things), and steer conversations toward the topic of Hierarchy. You can ask questions like, “Do you consider yourself to be Alpha?” which will typically open up an entire conversation about their Alphahood. Ask them how they knew. Ask them about their place in society, their responsibility. These are incredible questions that compliment him and also get him thinking about the difference between himself and lesser males. 

From there you steer him toward reasoning about those inferior males and how they can be/should be used. And at this point you can reveal your position as a slave male (leave out faggot for now) so he will start to see you in a new light. This will take root and grow. 

None of this is necessarily fast, although it can be. But anything good in life can take time.

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Hi Sam I’m pretty sure you get questions like this all time but I always see straight alphas in the gym that I would love to worship but It is so hard to get to them they are concentrated on their workouts it’s hard to socialize. I know this pair of twins both 20 alpha AF I tried talking to one on IG but he tends to leave me on read , they both say hi when I see them but nothing more . Any advice?

I do get this question all the time, of course, but every question has a unique wrinkle. Yours has a tricky element – the Alphas are twins. They influence each other in ways that are unpredictable in an approach by a faggot.

Since these are gym contacts, you can attempt three possible approaches. Here they are:

1. Offer to provide services like putting away weights, cleaning machines, getting water or towels. Maybe offer to buy them supplements or food. Be useful to both of them, and see if that eventually engages them.
2. Complement them on their physiques and ask them for advice. Alphas like to be helpful when it comes to showing off their physical power.
3. Ask them if they consider themselves to be Alpha. When they answer “yes”, lead them into a discussion of Hierarchy. Reason with them about the obvious aspects of Hierarchy, and emphasize that they deserve to be worshiped and served as leaders of Hierarchy.

Any of those can work if you approach it confidently. Good luck!

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Hi Sam, so I have a question for you basically what do I do?

I used to work with this guy several years ago, even back then he was pretty buff and really good looking even then (he’s gotten even better since) and we ended up going our separate ways professionally but a couple years ago he added me on as a friend on FB. He has chatted me up a coupe time, in a very “how’s life, how’s work,” kind of way. He was also always pretty religious, or at least I got that impression.

We hadn’t chatted in probably 6 months then a week ago he hit me up in the middle of the day on a work day talking about how he was going to miss summer and how he got these European swim suits on a whim when he was feeling brave, and how he’d probably look ridiculous in them. Because he’s a former coworker I’ve always kinda kept the conversation on that level, but that day because it all seemed playful and such I was like “oh I’m sure it’s not that bad, or I’m sure you’ll look great etc.” Long story short he ends up sending me several pictures modeling these swimsuits that basically show his whole ass and leaves very little to the imagination for his package and he is really amazing I have to say.

Anyway I don’t know if he knew I’m gay or not before, but he does now because I got a little excited and when he said some more self deprecating stuff I said something along the lines of “well you just made me pre, so I’m sure you’ll have that effect on others.” (he laugh reacted to that statement) and the conversation kind of tapered off after that. I apologized for sharing too much information to him and the conversation ended with him saying “you’re fine” to the apology.

So I guess my question(s) are these: does he sound like a possible alpha maybe chumming the water? And if so what if anything should I do next? Or should I just wait?

That was like a week ago and we haven’t talked since and I don’t want to do the wrong thing if this was all weirdly innocent. Thank you for the help Sam.

Thanks for the question, brother!

First of all, even if you hadn’t revealed your true nature to him with your little “joke”, I believe he already knew you were gay (although he may not know/understand about faggots). Why do I think that? Because what he’s doing with you I doubt he’s doing with other Alpha friends. 

I tend to agree with your idea that he’s “chumming the water” (very nice turn of phrase!), and I’m sure he liked the idea that he turned you on. Most straight Men and Alphas like to be attractive to others and like to hear how their sex appeal turns others on, even faggots that they don’t have an interest in. 

Here’s my question: is there a way for you to actually serve this Alpha? He’s moved away, so how would that even work even if he was interested in using you? 

The other thing I’m wondering about is how the conversation tapered off after the comment. He may have liked it, but his religious beliefs could make him feel guilty or dirty. 

I don’t really know if this is worth pursuing, honestly, but if you wanted to try you could simply start up a conversation with him and steer it toward Hierarchy. Ask him if he considers himself to be Alpha and see how he reacts.

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Hi Sam,

Great blog, it’s helped me realise my beta/fag side and my lust for worshipping alphas.

I need your advice…I had a straight alpha best friend for 10 years. When we became friends, I wasn’t ‘out’. We were very close… going to the gym, going out drinking (him picking up girls) etc.

He was a natural alpha…hot body, great looks, supreme confidence, controlled aggression, and a big cock (he told me and I can verify as I saw it!). He had the pick of women and would regularly tell me of his sexual activities and how women went crazy over his cock. During our friendship he told me numerous times that he knows he is an Alpha and I can tell he enjoys having control over others.

Some of the activities we would do when I was still in the closet involved sleeping in the same bed and aggressively play fighting in our boxer shorts where he would regularly pin me down – I loved it! Frequently, he would pin me down in his boxers by sitting on my chest with his knees over my shoulders, so I couldn’t move my arms, with me ‘pretending’ to struggle while staring at his big bulge. I loved the submissive nature of it and I think he enjoyed the dominance.

On another occasion, we nearly showered together after a drunken night out but he stopped after seeing I was getting a hard-on. Damn!

Anyway, after around 5 years into our friendship, I came out to him when drunk and he accepted me 100%. I was so scared, as previously he had made some jokingly homophobic comments, but he didn’t let it affect our friendship and would often stick up for me if we went out on nights out etc.

Fast forward to around 2 years ago…we went on a night out and we both got very drunk. In the early hours of the morning, we headed back to mine, where he was staying over. I was nearly blackout drunk at this point. He slept on the sofa and me in my own bedroom. Shortly after going to bed, unconsciously, I went up to him while he was sleeping and asked him if he wanted his dick sucked.

He asked me to repeat what I said and I asked him again. I’ll be honest, I thought this was an actual dream that I was having and in that moment I didn’t have any control over my actions. He left my house immediately. The next morning, I apologised – I was devastated. He replied saying that he needed time to think about our friendship etc.

He ended the friendship. I was devastated, gutted and depressed. I lost my closest friend at that point. Anyway, we haven’t spoken in two years. I still think of him most days. I get we won’t ever be friends again but I yearn to serve him even if it is transactional. I was always pretty submissive to him and wanted to please him.

I have often wondered what would happen if I tried to approach him like you have advised on this blog.

Previously he had confided in me that he is a very sexual man and needs frequent service, when talking about problems with his girlfriend (they are still together).

I would love to worship and serve him but I don’t know if I should try to or not. In my eyes, he is a god alpha and deserves true worship. While we were friends, I buried these feelings as best I could but I guess I have lost everything now anyway.

What are your thoughts?

What a heartbreaking letter! I’m so sorry that this happened! 

Sadly, this is always the danger when a faggot offers himself to an Alpha friend. It’s hard to say whether or not the way you offered yourself might have scared him, but he did take some time to think about his decision. That’s tough. 

This Alpha seems like a wonderful Man, very strong and confident. I’m disappointed that he cut you off without much of a discussion. However, I’m sure he did it because he thought continuing the friendship would only lead to pushing you further into obsession. 

I don’t know if there is a way to resurrect the relationship. A long friendship like this shouldn’t be tossed away forever, and I’m sure he agrees with that if he’s anything like I think he is. I don’t think it would be a bad idea to reach out via a message and just tell him you miss him and you’re sorry for what you said when you were drunk. If there could be a way to just talk, I’m sure the situation could be repaired. 

I know you feel embarrassed and scared of him now, but just be tactful and maintain your faith in the friendship you built with him. Keep me informed! 

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