I’m 19, gay, and I’ve been thinking about this more and more lately and wanted to hear from people who might understand.

I grew up with my single dad  who is in his mid 40s and older brother who is 21. My dad played college football back in the day and even now he still has that presence. Tall, broad shoulders, built, confident without trying. My brother took after him almost exactly. Same height, same frame, same way people just seem drawn to him.

Growing up I always idolized them and tried to emulate them, but it wasn’t really until I was in highschool that I realized we weren’t really the same. I held out for a growth spurt and some excess confidence that never came.

They are both very supportive of me even when I came out as gay (my dad even told me he fooled around in college), but I just realized even without the gay part people would never see me the way that they see them.

It seemed like girls and guys always orbited my brother, he was the quarter back on the football team. My dad never seemed to chase attention but somehow always had women chasing after him, even cause a minor scandal when he was caught with my friends mom who was married. My brother’s the same. He doesn’t really try and still people want to be around him. Even other guys seem to naturally defer to him.

Then there’s me.

I’m short. Skinny. Never athletic. I’m gay, which I don’t think caused it, but it made me notice dynamics differently. I’m not intimidating, not dominant, not the guy people look at when he walks into a room. I’ve always felt more comfortable observing than leading. I think if it weren’t for my brother I probably would have been fucked with a lot more in school. The football team kind of acted like a squad of bully’s but they wouldn’t do anything if it was against him.

For a long time I thought I’d eventually grow into being like them. But lately I’ve accepted I’m just not built for that role. I found your website looking to alpha males and honestly I think I’m a faggot.

Not in a self-hating way. More like realizing some people seem naturally suited to being the center of gravity and others aren’t.

I look at my dad and brother and think, these are alphas. Since the house was just guys, it was always pretty bro-y. We’d hang out in just in our underwear, rough house, talk in rude and gross ways.

Honestly, a big part of my gay awakening was when I was in middleschool and I guess all my dad’s underwear was dirty because he wasn’t in his usual underwear, he was just hanging out naked. I hadn’t grown pubes yet, and had never seen a grown man’s dick. I was in awe at the hair, his size, and even the smell that filled the room. I asked him why mine wasn’t like that and he said when I became a man, mine would grow to be like his (not even close).

Ever since then I have since around then loved smelling their underwear whenever I get the chance.

Anyways, this leads up to the main reason I am writing in. My brother went to school out of state 3 years ago, but I started going to a local community college so for the past few years it’s just been me and dad.

This Saturday, we were watching a movie and he was drinking a bit. Shooting the shit like usual. Out of no where he asked me if I was bottom? I took a second to process that he’d ask me something like that. I told him that I haven’t had an experiences other than oral, but that I think so. He said he figured and grinned a little bit while he sipped his beer. That offended me a little bit and he asked him why. He asked if I thought I was always sneaky grabbing his dirty underwear out of the hamper. I was probably as red as a tomato I was so embarrassed. “You could always just ask, bud” and he chuckled a bit  and grabbed his bulge. He was just wearing tighty whities. I was so flustered I couldn’t think of how to respond, I was embarrassed that I knew what I was doing, embarrassed that he could tell I was a bottom. I just turned my head toward the movie but honestly could not take in any of the information.

I don’t know how many he had, but he was definitely feeling it. He pulled out his giant veiny dick and said “You can always come straight to the source”. I had never seen it hard and it was like a pornstar’s. I was in shock but then he was even clearer “You can suck on it if you want”. I couldn’t believe this was actually happening. I got on my knees in front of him. He kept chuckling. I put his tip in my mouth and start sucking. I knew the scent and taste so well from his underwear but it was stronger and triggered something it me. Tried to get my lips to the base but I couldn’t so I just sucked on the top half and worked the base with my hands. He must have been needed it because he came in my mouth after about 2 minutes. I swallowed. It was amazing. But suddenly the reality that I just sucked my dad’s dick. He patted me on the head and said I was a good boy, while he put it back in his underwear.

I was full of excitement, and horror, and his cum. It was my ultimate fantasy but now I wondered what this meant for our family. He just turned back to the movie but I ran to my room. Furiously masturbated and then went to sleep.

When I woke up I could still taste his musk. And at first I savored it before getting in my head again and hoping he was too drunk and wouldn’t remember it.

When I went downstairs he was already up and had made coffee. So I was pretty sure he wasn’t so drunk he wouldn’t remember. My fear was confirmed when he asked why I ran off so quick last night. I was horrified but we had a good and incredibly embarrassing conversation. He said he had used lots of boys like me in college. I shouldn’t be ashamed of who I am. That we were in this together and that we could both help each other out. He said it was completely up to me but that he could tell by how quickly I got on my knees that I’d want more. We had a pretty normal lazy Sunday after that but my mind keeps racing.

Do you have any advice? Have you heard of other alpha fathers using their faggot sons? Is this natural?

My little brother, thank you for writing to me!

I must admit, I’m a little disappointed in myself. I’ve been at this so long and have had so many really crazy true stories that I feel like I should’ve seen that wild plot twist in your experience coming a mile away! I can only imagine how you felt and how confused you must be right now!

Let me answer this in “reverse”. Yes, I’ve covered multiple “Alpha Father sexually uses his faggot son” scenarios over the 11-year lifespan of this site. I’ve never seen any turn out negatively; in fact, quite the opposite! In possibly the most remarkable example, God Alpha Dino used (and occasionally still does use) his faggot son Jimmy. Their stories can be found in the right sidebar or by following the links I’ve provided.

The world condemns such relations between fathers and sons, of course, but hierarchy doesn’t operate within the narrow parameters of “moral values”. Hierarchy distills relationships (especially male relationships) into the pure animal instincts found within the power and dominance. At that level, your Dad ceases to be your father and simply transforms into a feral and dominant Alpha with needs that supersedes yours as the faggot programmed to satisfy them.

It’s that instinctive wiring we all have that caused your Dad to understand what you are and pull out his dick, and the instinctive wiring in you that caused you to immediately kneel and service him. Can you see that, feel that, understand that? I bet you can, and I bet your Dad can, too.

That’s why I don’t consider this situation to be “wrong”. You and your Dad are simply two males fulfilling roles you were born to play hierarchically.

It’s not surprising that your Dad used faggots in school. Many straight Alphas do. I’ve been the “first faggot” to multiple straight Alphas, so I can say it with confidence that straight Alphas possibly understand best how to use and train faggots because they are typically more in-touch with pure, unfettered masculinity. Your Dad has likely known what you are for a long time, but like any great Alpha he watched over your development and acted only when he felt it was the right time to teach you these important hierarchical lessons.

In some ways, having a Dad who is also a Master is the best situation for young faggots. Your Dad can train you with love and care, something that isn’t always guaranteed out in the world. Your Dad can strengthen your self-esteem, something lacking in many faggots. This will help you make better choices so that your precious gift of submissive service isn’t wasted on unworthy pretenders.

There is no better example of this than Jimmy. Master Dino’s use of his faggot son and the training he’s provided him has made Jimmy into one of the strongest faggots I know, and Jimmy is constantly overjoyed by the privilege he has serving both his God Alpha father and his two Alpha brothers (again, I strongly encourage you to read those threads).

I hope my answer covers your initial concerns, little brother. I know you’re reeling from all of this, but sharing these feelings with your Dad will help him understand how to guide you. I would really like you to share this post with him so he can read what you wrote and how I responded. You are, after all, his faggot … so he should be involved in any influences on you.

I’m always here if you need me. Please feel free to write to me anytime!

Love,

sam the faggot

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I work in a refugee center and there are three Arab Alpha Refugees from Syria! They grab their big bulges when I am around! How should I approach them? I feel the need to worship them!

Thank you for writing!

First of all, I thank you for the work you’re doing at that refugee center! As you may or may not know, I rescued an 18-year-old boy from Syria in 2017 at great risk and cost to both myself and him. Fortunately, it worked out eventually, and my precious Baby Boy is safe and thriving in Australia today. He is the most precious treasure in my life, a gift I will forever hold close.

The Syrian people have been brutalized by so many harsh regimes (as well as a punishing religious order) that helping them can be tricky. Baby Boy somehow kept his heart intact through all of the terror and abuse he suffered, but he was one of the fortunate few.

Hierarchically, most males in that region are conditioned to be Alphas. Of course, that doesn’t always “take”, but most of them recognize the natural order. From what I’ve come to know through this site over the years, straight Muslim Alphas have no issue using faggots as long as they can get away with it. Syria is one of the most virulently anti-gay countries in the world (Baby Boy saw gay people getting beheaded in the town square), so there is a lot of dangerous homophobia to be aware of.

Maybe try to acknowledge their bulges with your eye contact (and maybe a sly smile) the next time they’re grabbing them. This might trigger them to know what you are. This is a tricky situation (especially since this is occurring at your job), but you never know.

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This post is one restored from FWA and is part of the paid Master Nick channel here on the site.

Let’s be honest: sexual contact between Men is almost always aggressive and rough. The primal nature of Men – all violence and animal hunger – is often expressed sexually. But when a Man fucks a woman, her weaker state generally provides a check against the Beast raging within the Man; he must control himself around her in order to avoid harming her. 

But when a Man fucks another male, all stops are removed. The Man can fully express the entirety of his aggression and violence. The recipient of that aggression can often be overwhelmed, frightened, or hurt.

That power disparity is amplified exponentially within the Alpha/fag or Master/slave dynamic. Within that framework, the Alpha has all of the power, and the faggot has none. So whether the pair are exploring torture as a fetish or it’s simply a case of aggressive sex gone too far, the fact remains that the faggot is an object owned by the Alpha. 

And with ownership comes responsibility.

I say this to highlight something beautiful Master Nick did with Chin after he had to administer harsh discipline in the form of a belting. After an appropriate cooling-off period, Alpha Nick took Chin into his bedroom. There, on the bed, he held Chin tightly in his muscular arms while gently stroking Chin’s hair “just like you would do to a dog.” Alpha Nick repeatedly reassured Chin that he was “a good faggot” in soothing tones. 

This beautiful aftercare had the desired effect of rejuvenating Chin. If Chin had a tail like a dog, it would’ve been wagging happily after such tenderness and concern from his Master. That is the true power of aftercare.   

Good Alphas and Masters instinctively understand the need for this in a faggot’s life. Master Nick is a STRAIGHT MALE, yet he grasps the fundamental need for such care given that he owns these faggots. That is a quality only the most incredible Men on Earth appreciate and practice. 

Here are some ways aftercare can be administered:

PHYSICAL

• Holding each other
• Light touching, stroking
• Gentle massage
• Replenishing food and/or drink
• Loving sex

EMOTIONAL

• Discussions of feelings over what happened
• Expressions of care and devotion
• Uplifting music

As leaders, Kings, and gods, Men have a special responsibility – tend to the needs of the little ones, the weak and vulnerable possessions in their care. This is especially true of the faggots serving them. The faggot surrenders all of itself to the glory of their Owner and, like a faithful dog, seeks only its Master’s approval.

A wise Man uses aftercare to deepen the faggot’s devotion to service and give it the strength to continue to serve!      

Dear Sam,

I was very lucky in college to get a gorgeous Alpha for a roommate and eventually Dom who I’ll call “Tommy.” He was this beautiful olive-complexioned burly wrestler with curly dark hair and a dazzling cocky smile he flashed constantly. With a little effort, and your advice, I slowly started leading him into the idea of becoming his sub. I used wrestling as an introduction, offering to spar with him any time he wanted extra practice and when he saw how much he enjoyed tossing around and pinning down a much smaller guy, our hierarchy was set, and I was his for the next four years.

The situation was wonderful for both of us. With me tending to all of his needs, he exceled athletically and academically, and having me waiting in the room to suck him dry at every turn meant that he never fell to the typical siren songs that many young, horny, unrestrained college athletes succumbed to. I was thriving, as well, the comfort and security I got from being so fully owned did wonders for my confidence as well, and I dove headfirst into my studies and student clubs and became a regular social butterfly. Had we ever acknowledged a public relationship or let it extend past the four walls of our dorm room, we likely would have been seen as the university’s top power couple.

Sadly, we did drift apart after we graduated and started building our own careers, but kept in touch enough for me to see that he continued to thrive as well as I did. I’ve become a successful realtor and he’s launched a few successful startups and made some very profitable investments, clearly using his Alpha skills to dominate business deals the same way he used to dominate me when I laid on the floor at his feet (well, maybe not exactly the same way, although…)

Anyway, our five-year reunion recently came and went and I got to meet up with Tommy in person again. At the party, he was the same charming-bordering-on-cocky alpha he always was, with the same dazzling smile and the same wrestler’s build that stretched the seams of his business casual clothes that just always looked wrong on him (a body like that should always be standing on a plinth and covered in nothing but a single fig-leaf to be admired by the masses.) I suggested going out for a drink afterward, and he agreed. While there, I started mustering up the courage to ask the question I wanted to all night, but right before I was about to turn and ask if he wanted to have one more night of fun for old time’s sake, I turned and noticed something was… off. He seemed withdrawn, the sparkle was gone from his eyes. With a little prodding and a few more beers, I finally got him to open up. He didn’t want to say anything at the party, but I guess when you’re alone with someone who’s met your family at your graduation with a belly full of your piss before, you’re a little past playing coy. His dad had been sick for a while, and he was reaching the point where his time left was being predicted in weeks. Tommy had been caring for him full-time, by himself and suffering in silence, for a couple of years now, and the stress and grief had clearly worn him down. The reunion was the first time he’d been on a social outing in months, and his charming confident self was all an act, the same mask he put on every time he negotiated a business deal or lead a board meeting, purely instinct at that point.

Sam, it absolutely broke my heart to see Tommy this way. I’ve already decided I’m going to help him physically, both with caring for his father and getting through the next steps when the worst finally happens. Helping him mentally, however, is going to be trickier. I can see the same assertive, cocky Dom I knew back in college still buried in there, I’m just not sure of the right approach to draw him back out. Simply saying, “Hey, how about you sit on my face or I suck on your toes for a while?” seems wrong in this context, and possibly a little selfish on my part. Do you have any advice for helping to rebuild an alpha that’s this… broken?

Thank you my brother for sharing your inspirational-yet-sad story!

First of all, congratulations on the tremendous opportunity you received in college and how well you capitalized on it! Alphas sometimes need faggots to help them understand their purpose and how to satisfy the deeper needs they don’t often comprehend. I can’t tell you how much I appreciate the fact that what I’ve taught here helped you make that connection with Master Tommy! So huge!

(BTW, your description of Master Tommy is almost exactly how I would describe my beloved Master Aaron! My pussy widened just reading it!)

It’s amazing that a Master and his faggots can have such a powerful bond for four years “in the trenches” of college and then drift apart, isn’t it? However, it really shows something about Master Tommy’s nature that he kept in communication with (what I assume was) his first true faggot! He’s an Alpha of great depth to match his stunning exterior!

I’m so sorry to hear for Master Tommy’s loss, my brother! Again, how Master Tommy stoically handled himself at the reunion and then with you after reveals a lot about his bravery and strength! I can see why you’ve spent so many years worshiping and serving him! He deserves it!

Your plan to assist him during this time is absolutely what I would advise, brother. Do everything for him, still treating him like a King but allowing him the space to care for what he needs to do. Don’t push for anything sexual right now. There are times (like these) when a faggot should be like a loyal dog, quietly loving and tenderly compassionate. Alphas don’t know how to express a lot of these more complex emotions during distress, so just be a lifting breeze for him until the worst has past.

I would add one suggestion: remain submissive to him. For example, if you’re sitting with him watching television, sit on the floor at his feet unless he directs you otherwise. Show him deference as an Alpha without making a whole sexualized deal about it. Asking, “Master/Sir, is there anything you need?” is an effective way to keep the proper lines of communication open.

Once this awful time has passed, I suspect that Master Tommy will look at you with a passionate gratitude that he still owns a faggot like you! Furthermore, it will deepen and strengthen his appreciation for the Alpha/faggot dynamic that has enriched his blessed life! I do really anticipate that kind of dramatic response, so look forward to it!

Thank you so much for sharing your story with me, brother! I do hope you’ll keep me updated!!!

Love,

sam the faggot

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The following post is part of a thread following the story of Titouan, an 18-year-old French faggot currently owned by an older straight Alpha. CLICK HERE to read all of these posts in chronological order!

I think most faggots become apprehensive when an Alpha suggests chastity. There’s this distinct and somewhat terrifying feeling of helplessness that washes over them, as if they’re about to be tossed off a cliff and into an abyss, lost forever.

But here’s the surprise: chastity actually does the opposite. Yes, the faggot’s sex organs are tossed off a cliff, so to speak, but instead of falling into an abyss, the faggot finally learns to FLY.

Chastity is such a useful tool to get a faggot to accept its truth and more deeply experience what it was born to know: that it was never meant to be a Man, never meant to use its penis like Men, and never meant to penetrate or reproduce like Men.

Titouan is a faggot who was definitely born a faggot and embraced that purpose from a young age. Chastity is a natural progression for him. Until now, Titouan hasn’t really been confronted by that as a permanent possibility, but now that he’s owned by a kinky, straight, married Alpha, that possibility is looking more like a reality:

Hello, I hope everything is ok on your side. Very hot in France these days. I went to pool, exciting for me as twink and young faggot, seeing other boys and men in speedos (only authorised swimwear in most french pools). Just moments of humiliation when some other boys have big bulges in their speedos and luv the girls to look at them,  I have not the same and some call me petite bite (tiny dick) and make fun, but true they are in a different category and I admire them.

Fortunately my Alpha straight Daddy just sent me a message, he wants me tomorrow afternoon in his secret second apartment in Paris. I must bring the chastity cage he made me buy, he writes “demain je  la fixe” which means tomorrow he’s going to lock it on my little dick. I suppose he may keep the key when he will send me back home. I know it won’t be seen under the boyish white briefs (as on the above title picture) I must wear, means no pb if my sisters at home or other boys in sport lockerroom see me in underwear (except they laugh at my whities but this not new).

My Alpha Daddy told me it’s fair rule a young faggot like me has to wear chastity and feel humiliation and frustration, pleasure being reserved for real men. I know he is right, big frustration yes, very jealous of other boys, but at same time I luv to feel  so much his superiority as Alpha straight and mature Male, and my place as twink who has to serve superior men like him.

He also sends me other videos showing my duties , I luv them as I must do the same, do you think they are good examples ?

Here is the video Titouan’s Master sent him:

You can hear Titouan’s nervousness in his message, and I get it. But ultimately, the humiliation he already feels wearing his tighty-whiteys and his little boy pee-pee around other guys can’t be any worse by wearing a cage. In fact, I think Titouan wearing a chastity cage will only make straight males that see it better understand his purpose and use him more. There have been plenty of experiences just like that documented on this site.

So I encourage Titouan to be proud of his Master putting him in permanent chastity, and use it to his advantage. There’s so much education Titouan can provide these other straight Men and Alphas who are curious about why he wears his cage, and what it means to be a faggot!

I’ve come to the realization that I can only submit to straight alphas. I only feel humiliated by them. I only want to be cucked or feel cucked by them.

if a gay alpha did the same thing then I wouldn’t care or feel anything . Why?

Thanks for writing, brother!

This is a pretty common issue among faggots (I had the same issue in my younger years). We faggots grow up fantasizing about serving straight Alphas that we knew growing up. Their carefree power was intoxicating to us, so naturally when we got a bit older we carried over that fetishizing of straight Alphas.

This is a shame, because gay Alphas understand faggots much better, and more importantly, know how to TRAIN faggots. The only real issue I have with gay Alphas is a lot of older gay Alphas want to be a little more reciprocal or fetishy (surprise!) because they’re gay. However, I think younger gay Alphas are much more likely to be just as dominant and non-reciprocal as straight Alphas, to the point that you cannot tell the difference between them.

Just know that this conditioning is preventing you from experiencing the depth and breadth that the entire Alpha fraternity offers if you only want to serve straight Alphas while disparaging gay Alphas.

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I love this faggot’s refreshingly joyful attitude toward chastity! It’s so healthy and proud! Chastity is a great thing for faggots! Embrace it!

I took your advice. I was being used by my alpha and he suddenly got up and said “I gotta piss” then I proceeded to kneel and suck his soft cock. No piss.

was that not clear? Another time I followed him to the bathroom and he said “I’ll stop you at piss kink” I jokingly responded “piss kink? I just like bothering you”

now what ?

Thanks for the follow-up (I guess?), although I couldn’t find the previous advice I gave you.

Frankly, I think you did the wrong thing with those to examples you provided me.

In the first example, your Alpha said he had to piss and you knelt to suck his soft cock. Is that necessarily supposed to tell him to piss in your mouth? It could simply be taken by him as you just wanting to suck his dick. Why wouldn’t you kneel and tell him you’re willing to swallow his piss?

In the second example, you turned your “offer” into a joke. You should never do that. Kneeling beside the toilet and simply saying, “Sir, may I drink your piss?” would be direct and a vastly better approach.

Your Alpha is not a mind reader, nor does he understand the depth of our need to be of service to them. He’s not your buddy … he’s your Alpha. Treat him with serious respect, but also help him understand how to better own you. That requires honest, direct communication, not games.

Try again.

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Yoo sam, could you tell us about your highschool years as a faggot?

I’m straight, but I imagine that, being a faggot, your experience was probably quite different. I guess you wouldn’t have joined in on the conversations about rating the best girls’ asses in class hahaha. Also you could create a section about your own life experiences

Thank you for writing, Sir!

Well, this should be fun! I don’t write a lot of autobiographical stuff on here aside from specific examples of my past as a faggot, but I’m definitely willing to share, Sir!

I grew up in the Midwest of suburban America in the 80s and 90s, the firstborn son of religious, middle-class parents. My high school was straight out of a John Hughes film, and I was a near-carbon copy of the nerdy kid played by Anthony Michael Hall in those films (particularly in SIXTEEN CANDLES). Skinny, gangly, goofy, and cute. I had a thick brown mop of feathered hair, big, brown cow eyes with long eyelashes, and embarrassing dimples. I was well-known in school for bizarrely wearing an electric-blue bomber jacket every single day for all four years of high school (we symbolically burned it at a post-graduation bonfire).

I had a very tight group of misfit friends all four years that we called “The Group”. We’d known each other since kindergarten (and I’m still friends with some of them today!), and we knew each other very well. In the social hierarchy of our high school, we were somewhere between The Burnouts on the lower levels and The Jocks on the main levels.

I was very much then like I am today; intelligent, creative, sweethearted, but also armed with a blistering streak of sarcasm that earned me the title of “King Of The Put-Downs”. This combination of qualities served me well during my Freshman year when I found myself in an elective recreational sports class with a bunch of Seniors. They found me hilarious, and I became their funny little brother … so they served as my “protector Alphas” in dangerous areas like the lunchroom. The only time they didn’t protect me was in my history class, where a bully named Matt Sprenger tormented me every day.

My friends were all typically straight white guys, and I managed to blend in perfectly with them even though I was nothing like them inside. Ever since fifth or sixth grade I knew I felt something for boys. My first “crush” happened then with a boy named George Collins. Then in junior high I sort of fell in love with a guy named Bob who looked a little like a blonde version of Albert from “Little House on the Prairie”, and that continued into high school. Ugh … Bob used to wear this form-hugging gray corduroy pants that showed off his bulge and his perfect ass. While my friends were busy talking about cheerleader tits and asses, I was chasing Bob and this cute guy named Matt.

These crushes helped me understand that I was gay, and I knew I felt submissive (as a little kid I was already manifesting an interest in macrophilia), but I didn’t know what to do with those feelings. I certainly never told my friends, nor my parents. So instead I began to date and attempt to fuck girls like my friends were doing. This started between the ages of 15-16. I lost my virginity to a white girl named Rachelle, my second girlfriend. I had a threesome with two girls one night at a party.

And I hated it. Entering a vagina with my little pee-pee felt wrong, and my body didn’t seem to even understand thrusting and other mechanical aspects of straight male fucking. I tried eating vagina, and it was absolutely revolting. All-in-all it was an embarrassing disaster. I started to think I was doomed.

Then I got a job at an Italian restaurant, and there I met a straight Alpha named Roger. He was my age and same grade, but he went to a competing high school. He was everything I wasn’t: hot, sexy, confident, muscular, and extremely popular. I fell instantly in love with him. I wanted to be with him all the time, smell his scent, and hear his laughter. He’d playfully call me “faggot” – the first time anyone ever called me that, and it was like an electric charge raced through my body every time he said it. The word felt like a siren song leading me into deeper waters.

This was, of course, the same Roger who forced me to my knees and throat fucked me with his 8+ inch cock a few months after meeting me (we had been watching some schlocky “girls in prison” movie in his mother’s basement). After that, I was his personal cocksucker for our final year of high school, and I never looked back.

So yeah, those were my years of discovery as a faggot in high school, Sir! I’m not sure my development was typical of most faggots, and I certainly handled those years with a sense of wide-eyed wonder and excitement that definitely seems atypical now that I’ve spoken to so many other fags.

EPILOGUE: Before I get the inevitable follow-up question, yes my high school friends all know I’m a faggot these days. After I disappeared from them for several years (being owned by multiple Masters), I returned and told them the truth. Then, at a class reunion, I made sure everyone in the class knew I was a faggot. Needless to say, none of them were shocked! We all had a great laugh over it!

One more thing, Sir: There is a category specifically for me and my stories. It’s all in the category “Me”.

🚨Hierarchical positioning!

Notice how the Alpha takes the higher seat, looking down on the weaker male?

Ideally, all faqqots seeking to serve straight Alphas can trigger a response by taking the lower seat at their feet and looking up at them!

HierarchyIsTruth

Serious cocksuckers seeking improvement should watch how this faqqot worships and services this young Man’s big dick! The faqqot expertly edges him until he shoots a load in its mouth!

Also notice the deep respect the faqqot has for cum! Always respect Alpha loads!

Hi Sam –

Longtime fan of your site. I have been trying to figure out what to write to you for a while now (if you want to share any of this on your site please feel free to do so).

A little background: I’m a fag, 40 years old, former fraternity guy and athlete. I’ve been married to my Alpha military husband (Army Alpha) for 10 years.

Our relationship in brief: I’m obviously a total bottom, I’m into a lot of kinks and some kinda extreme stuff. I’ve experienced a few rapes over my lifetime, and it’s a big part of my desire to serve. I also tend to seek situations where I put myself at risk of that happening and recreating what I’ve gone through. My favorite experiences of service have been for sadistic, Destroyer Alphas (if those details are of interest I can share my experiences). I’m a masochistic fag and like to know that my pain brings pleasure for an Alpha.

My Alpha husband (I’d say he is in the Protector Alpha category) understands this and has been open to exploring some of these desires of mine but also says he loves me and couldn’t take it as far as I want. He is a total top, but is more vanilla sexually. I obviously don’t pressure or force him to do anything he isn’t comfortable with, but it has impacted our sex lives. He usually only uses my mouth and not my fag hole because of his size (8-8.5 inches and extremely thick). Although I am a total bottom and have taken many Alpha cocks, and I stretch myself frequently, I remain very tight – to the point that sometimes he says it’s too tight for him to fuck me and doesn’t feel good on him. I’ve told him he can force it into me, begged him to, but when I start to show I’m in pain it turns him off.

We’re fully open, he fucks other fags and likes to hear about me getting fucked by other guys. We rarely have threesomes for many reasons (mostly irrelevant but can share if you want to know). But I’ve heard a really hard time recently finding any other true Alphas that would be willing to fuck me hard and wreck my fag hole. He says if I have that done he thinks I’d be loser for him.

For the next year we are long distance (because of a deployment for him) but I’ll be able to visit him for a month or two every few months. I’ve been looking EVERYWHERE for an Alpha to own me while he’s gone (Grindr, X, BDSMLR, Reddit, etc) but have been unsuccessful.

My questions for you:

1. Where can I find an Alpha? Most guys I talk to are only seeking virtual roleplay, or are too far away to ever meet, or want a young fag (at 40 I’m still very conscious about my looks and body and make sure I stay attractive for Alphas). I’m mostly attracted to straight Alphas (all my friends are straight and they are 100% in the Alpha category). I’ve tried to show them I’d serve them but it’s never worked (a few brief moments with teammates or frat brothers or childhood friends but never long term).

2. I don’t want to pressure my Alpha husband into things and know it isn’t my place, but when he fucks other fags he is very rough and aggressive so I know he has that side to him as well. Is there a way I could respectfully encourage him to do the same to me? He recently told me about a fag he fucked wearing his uniform, one booted foot on the fags head while he fucked him using only a little spit for lube and the fag ripped and bled. I get hard knowing he did that and wish it were me. He knows that I’d like that but says he’d never want to hurt me. But he’s hurting me by not giving me that experience and it’s now becoming an overriding focus of my life. I’ll spend days seeking it out, and now that I live alone I have fewer responsibilities to my Alpha so I will ignore friends and family and work searching for an Alpha to use me (that’s incredibly embarrassing for me to admit, and I know it isn’t healthy but its been so long since I was able to feel of use and like I’m fully serving I am obsessed with it).

Sam – can you help me please?

Respectfully,

Frat Fag Alex

Thank you for writing to me, Alex! I apologize for the delay!

I’ve encountered this weird situation a couple of times in the past, and it always leaves me baffled. Protector Alphas are amazing, but when they’re GAY Protector Alphas it can almost become a barrier. Gay Protector Alphas are too careful with their faggot partners because they’re in love with their faggot partners.

A faggot is a very specific kind of creature. Our need to be used and serve overwhelms everything else. We surrender everything to fulfill this central need; our bodies, our minds, our self-respect, and even our hopes and dreams. Even extreme pain is not a real consideration for us fags, just as long as we are pleasing our Owners. All that truly matters to us is our Alpha’s complete satisfaction. I really don’t think it’s even possible for Alphas to comprehend this about their faggots, even extremely experienced Alphas like your husband.

I get that he loves you. You are his most prized possession. But that is what’s so confounding to me about this situation – he’s loving you so much that he’s preventing you from being the most complete version of yourself. By sparing you what he thinks is pain, he’s actually causing tremendous emotional damage to you instead. I’m sure you’d agree with me that a pussy hole delightfully damaged in service will recover, but slowly suffocating to death as years tick away is the kind of damage that is hard to recover. Does your husband really think it’s okay for you to watch him use other faggots the way you desperately want to be treated?? That idea is mind-boggling to me.

It’s amazing how much better straight Alphas are with their personal faggots when it comes to this issue, and I think that’s both a shame and a mystery.

Anyway, back on point. I want to deal with the second question first, because I think the real issue is what’s happening in the marriage.

First and foremost, I want you to have your husband read your ask and my reply. It’s very important that he comprehends the depth of your desperation and sadness over this. He needs to appreciate how much long-term damage this is causing within you. He also needs to understand that giving to other fags the most intrinsic thing you desire and are denied is absolutely wrong, cruel, and unconscionable.

Secondly, whenever you both are together, I want you to try Caged Jock’s ingenious hole-stretching method using chopsticks (SEE THE VIDEO HERE). This is an activity you can do together to stretch you more and prepare you for the fuck of your life. This is the kind of “upkeep” every Master should be doing with their faggots in order to customize them for proper service.

As for your Question #1:

Submitting to your straight Alpha friends is still a possibility, but it might be only in the domestic aspect unless you get them drunk. The problem faggots have when trying to seduce their straight Alpha friends is the “friends” part. When an Alpha sees a guy as his friend (and “equal”), he’s less likely to want to use the fag. Calling them “Sir”, being complimentary, and directing the conversations to them in upbuilding ways (particularly engaging them in conversations about their Alphahood) can and often does lead to some engagement. Take a couple of these straight Alpha friends out for dinner/drinks and employ a more submissive persona, utilize what I just told you, and you might be surprised. I wonder if they even really understand what a faggot is … so it might be good to educate them. They’d also need to understand that your Owner has no issue with you serving other Alphas.

You can employ these same techniques while out alone at a bar or restaurant/bar and you see a straight Alpha alone. Offer to pay for his meal/drinks, and when he asks, just be frank as to why. Is he really going to hit a submissive male who’s buying stuff for him and calling him an Alpha? Of course not! He might not be willing to do anything, but this is a game of repetition and averages. Keep trying, and you will find success.

The apps are a mess, but apps like TheBlowers.com will absolutely get you Alpha action. Try that in a pinch.

In conclusion, I honestly think this situation with your Alpha husband can be fixed. There needs to be more open, honest communication and some experimentation to make it work.

Thank you for the long-time readership, and for reaching out to me, my brother!

Love,

sam the faggot

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Hi Sam,

I hope you’re doing good. I have a straight friend, Patrick, who I find really charming, he’s very smart and has a really nice body. Me and him have been friends for a few months now, and I’ve realized I would like him to be my master/dom in some way. However, he’s never used fags before, to my knowledge. How do I bridge the gap without it being too awkward or coming on too strong. I don’t want turn him away and possibly ruin our friendship. I’ll take any and all advice you could give me, and thanks in advance!

Sincerely,

Luke

Luke, thank you for writing to me!

That’s great that you’ve found a possible Alpha to serve! I know it’s always a little intimidating, but there’s really nothing to fear. This is all quite natural.

I don’t know how often you hang out together (or even your ages), so some of what I suggest might not be applicable given that I don’t how you typically interact. If you’re hanging out watching movies or sports in a house, try to get low in relation to his body (like sit on the floor at his feet, etc.). Offer to pay for food/drinks when you’re out together. Be genuinely complimentary. If he’s single, offer to do cleaning or laundry for him, or detail his car. In other words, find ways to be USEFUL to him. This will eventually trigger something in him if he’s truly Alpha.

A shortcut to this longer play is to simply engage him in a conversation about hierarchy. Ask him if he considers himself to be Alpha. Definitely pump up his confidence on this. Then explain hierarchy to him in relation to himself and where he stands among other males.

Depending how that conversation goes, you can show him this site’s pinned post about hierarchy so he can read it. Or perhaps give him my “Letter To An Alpha” (right sidebar) so he can more fully understand your feelings.

Again, without much detailed information about both of you and your situation, it’s hard to advise further. But these are benchmarks in the whole seduction phase with an Alpha.

Let me know how it goes!

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Where can I find true alpha men? I would prefer gay but BI would be okay too.

Thanks for writing!

It’s not that hard, brother. Go wherever Men like to congregate and socialize. Gyms, bars, sporting events, parks, hardware stores (there’s a reason why Home Depot is called “Homo Depot”), etc. If you’re in school, that’s even better because they’re literally everywhere and always horny.

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Whenever people ask me how I came up with the definitions of various levels of hierarchy I get a little nervous. Yes, there are certain criteria that define each level, but some of it is my instinct honed over the course of 30 years. I can just feel out a person’s status by the details of their stories and how they express themselves and determine their status.

But some levels of hierarchy are easier to read than others. From my vantage point as a faggot, I’ve learned to spot the Alpha levels of hierarchy so well that they are as clear as daylight. That’s why I was the first (and perhaps still the only) teacher of hierarchy to really isolate these subtle Alpha layers and clearly delineate them.

The most important of these Alpha layers is the top one, which I’ve named “God Alpha”. God Alphas lead the pack, so to speak, setting the pace for everyone else and receiving the greatest rewards for their vast superiority.

Watch this incredible video narrated by straight findom Master @HoldenMastersX in which he describes his life and how he came to accept and embrace the entirety of his God Alphahood. Afterward, I will break down the deciding factors of his status:

There are quite a few God Alpha signals in this video. Let’s pick them apart:

1. Submission of other Alphas – In the video, Master Holden describes how other Alphas followed him and looked to him for guidance. He was the captain and quarterback of the football team, a very natural position for a God Alpha.

2. Claiming of the property of other Alphas – Master Holden insinuates that he could (and did) take the women from fellow Alphas and other males.

3. The submission of older people in positions of societal power – Master Holden insinuates that even school faculty let him have his way, thereby unofficially acknowledging his natural authority over them.

4. Easy claiming of females – Master Holden admits that getting whatever he wants from girls is not even a challenge because women simply surrender to him and offer themselves to him.

5. Faggots submitted to him from a very early age – This is almost always a sign of burgeoning God Alphahood, because faggots in high school are typically too scared to offer themselves unless motivated by a truly and uniquely powerful force.

6. Master Holden accepted the worship/service of faggots – This is a critical step for God Alphahood, because it reveals in the Alpha an eagerness to embrace all of hierarchy as a natural extension of his truth as a God Alpha. Any true God Alpha must understand the very nature of hierarchy and accept it.

What did you notice about Master Holden’s extraordinary description of his God Alphahood?

Hierarchy 312 – True Alpha Qualities To Worship

A true Alpha is more than the size of his dick!

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Hi Sam.

I hope all is well.

I am a longtime Alpha worshipper. Unfortunately I’ve never served one properly. Whilst I respect all Alphas, I am particularly turned on by Destroyer Alphas, even though I am in full awareness of the toxic nature of them.

Why are some of us wired this way? I don’t understand why I derive pleasure from watching an Alpha belittle and hurt His inferiors. I particularly find myself in awe of Alpha bullies, and I enjoy amateur videos of Destroyer Alphas making Their inferior male counterparts perform non-consensual degrading acts, like kissing their shoes.

My heart always goes out to the victims, but at the same time I’m aroused by the cruel behaviour of the Alpha. It pleases me to know He enjoyed the high of His power.

It’s very conflicting, and I can’t make sense of it. I think given the choice I’d sooner be used by a Destroyer than a Protector. But I know this would be a poor life choice.

Any thoughts?

Thank you for writing in brother!

I honestly don’t know why so many faggots are drawn to serve Destroyer Alphas, other than the fact that faggots are broken creatures much the way many women are. And like faggots, women are more often than no attracted to the “bad boy” that treats them like shit, and keeps going back even if they’re abusive. There’s something about the submissive personality that is attracted by the abuse, because in their minds abuse = power, and it’s power than turns them on.

Honestly, it’s that dynamic that probably attracts Alphas to the Destroyer mentality, too.

I experimented with Destroyer Alphas mainly during my early, slutty years because my first straight Alpha used me for a year and threw me away and then I was raped, so that caused me to have low self-esteem. I felt it’s what I “deserved” for being a faggot. Fortunately I was eventually claimed by a series of very powerful Apex and God Alphas of the Protector Alpha variety, and they taught me that I had value, and they could be dominant without being cruel. It was not easy to overcome my sense of worthlessness, but I eventually did.

And so can you, brother. You just need to know that it’s okay to walk away when you find yourself serving a Destroyer Alpha, and remember there are Protector Alphas eager to own you … if you just allow yourself the chance!

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When I say that Alpha cum reprograms the minds and bodies of faggots, I mean it.

Just listen to this: