Over the last few days I fell into a deep conversation with a particularly powerful Alpha (he shall remain nameless for now) about the physical abuse of faggots.
First a little background.
This Alpha is completely heterosexual, but he also owns several faggots as well. By “owned,” I mean he has signed contracts for each fag slave and literally keeps them chained up in his house. These fags have given up their lives and freedoms to serve this particular Alpha.
Recently, this Alpha took on another fag slave and had the fag flown across the country. I asked the Alpha how it was to meet his new slave for the first time when he picked the fag up at the airport. The Alpha said that he enjoyed their meeting, particularly when he pulled over on the side of the road and raped the fag after “roughing it up a bit.”
Even as an experienced fag accustomed to some measure of abuse, I was taken aback by this story. When I asked for more detail about it, the Alpha simply said that he punched the fag a few times “to set the right tone from the start” and remind the fag “who was in charge.” The Alpha also said that beating the fag “got him off, too.”
I was so upset by this information that I felt on the verge of tears for a day. I did actually start crying when I spoke to the Alpha again and confessed my disgust and horror at his treatment of the fag. I just couldn’t understand the reason why an Alpha would need to beat up a defenseless faggot obviously there to serve him.
The Alpha began to explain about the “dark side” of the Alpha mentality, a place in the mind filed with pure aggression, dominance, and brutality. This Alpha explained that most true Alphas have this dark side within them (although they may not admit to it so bluntly as he has), and they naturally seek weaker beings to abuse in order to release this pent-up energy.
But then he went on to use one of his faggot slaves as an example. According to this Alpha, he owns one fag who is “good for nothing” except abuse. The Alpha said that this abuse slave, for whatever reason, craves humiliation and degradation. This slave isn’t attractive, sexually competent, or useful for menial tasks like housework duties. This particular fag wants an Alpha Master who will treat it the way it feels it deserves: like human garbage.
And the Alpha keeps this abuse fag around for the sole purpose of beating it and torturing it in order to gratify his dark lust for physically dominating others.
In this Alpha’s view, both parties are getting what they need from the situation. The Alpha has a way to release the dark powers coursing inside of him, and the abuse slave receives a powerful Master capable of providing the abusive environment and treatment it craves.
At that point, I stopped crying. It all made perfect sense.
I can’t say that I would ever want to be an abuse fag. I do think I work very hard to please any Alpha who owns me, and therefore I feel I deserve humane treatment. I realize I would never be “loved” by an Alpha, particularly a straight Alpha, but I feel I could be prized as a quality possession.
But certainly there are some fags out there who cannot feel complete in their service unless they are totally degraded, beaten, and humiliated. I believe the emotional space required to reach that kind of self-hatred is just as dark as the rage that fuel the Alpha’s need to aggressively dominate. They’re simply the most extreme examples of the power within the Alpha/fag dynamic.
Now that I understand this better, I feel less shame and disgust. We all have a place somewhere in nature’s order. We should find it and embrace it.
With all of the recent discussions about faggot abuse, I thought I would repost this from last January.
I do think there are faggots out there who crave constant humiliation and torture, just as there are Alphas out there with a rage inside of them much as I described above. I prefer that my Owner would not want to hurt me, and that my service to him would make him proud to own me. But not every faggot shares that outlook.
